The day that i dun want it to come had finally arrived...
Last nite, i tried to sleep as late as possible to take a look at hubby and spend time wif him. When the alarm clock rang at 6.15am, i do not want to open my eyes as i do not want the day to come. We went to my parents' place to send dya to school.. We had breakfast at mcdonalds, i just had a hashbrown. I cant stop looking at him. tick tock tick tock... time is moving. Finally its 9am, dya was dismissed from school. We went up to my parents place, he took his bags, dya changed her clothes and off we go.
I cant hide my tears once the cab arrived. it was 9.20am. That was the last time i felt his smooth skin on mine. I have to wait another 46hrs to be in his arms again. Oh my!! I just feel so awkward. After 4 yrs being together, and cuz of future and career, we had to sacrifice for 6months.. Its just early january... Its until JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When come to think about it, to let 24hrs past will take wonders... wat about 6mths. Today im off. I rather work!!! I cant stay at hm. Its boring without him, and i hate going back to my parents place. Their life and my life is different now. I was just pissed by mama, she called me, wanted to put sabrina at my home. For god sake. Im not interested. Though she is my daughter, but i dun have the love at all. I wanna spend time wif only dya. I dunno y im very stingy. I just dun want her to mess my hm. Its not her hm anyway. Jai is not her father and anyway she dun treat me like her mum.. Let it be.. Who cares....
Anyway im hungry now. Usually if im hungry i will just say out to hubby. He will fulfil all my wishes. Now i have to do it on my own. For a start its so difficult. Dya is asleep now. How? have to wait for her. Dunno wat time then wake up. Sianx. Hubby is bz mayb. Nvr reply my msg. Funny rite if he hasnt taken his lunch. now its 2pm. Dunno la.. I just dun wanna think stupid things.
Sacrifices cum sacrifices...........
sighx
Last nite, i tried to sleep as late as possible to take a look at hubby and spend time wif him. When the alarm clock rang at 6.15am, i do not want to open my eyes as i do not want the day to come. We went to my parents' place to send dya to school.. We had breakfast at mcdonalds, i just had a hashbrown. I cant stop looking at him. tick tock tick tock... time is moving. Finally its 9am, dya was dismissed from school. We went up to my parents place, he took his bags, dya changed her clothes and off we go.
I cant hide my tears once the cab arrived. it was 9.20am. That was the last time i felt his smooth skin on mine. I have to wait another 46hrs to be in his arms again. Oh my!! I just feel so awkward. After 4 yrs being together, and cuz of future and career, we had to sacrifice for 6months.. Its just early january... Its until JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When come to think about it, to let 24hrs past will take wonders... wat about 6mths. Today im off. I rather work!!! I cant stay at hm. Its boring without him, and i hate going back to my parents place. Their life and my life is different now. I was just pissed by mama, she called me, wanted to put sabrina at my home. For god sake. Im not interested. Though she is my daughter, but i dun have the love at all. I wanna spend time wif only dya. I dunno y im very stingy. I just dun want her to mess my hm. Its not her hm anyway. Jai is not her father and anyway she dun treat me like her mum.. Let it be.. Who cares....
Anyway im hungry now. Usually if im hungry i will just say out to hubby. He will fulfil all my wishes. Now i have to do it on my own. For a start its so difficult. Dya is asleep now. How? have to wait for her. Dunno wat time then wake up. Sianx. Hubby is bz mayb. Nvr reply my msg. Funny rite if he hasnt taken his lunch. now its 2pm. Dunno la.. I just dun wanna think stupid things.
Sacrifices cum sacrifices...........
sighx
