such a boring night

DINI IS ALREADY FAST ASLEEP. LEFT ALONE NOW DOING NOTHING.
HUBBY IS BUZY AT HIS CAMP.

I NOW FEEL UNEASY ABOUT HIM. CAN I BE SURE THAT HE IS LOYAL AND SINCERE TOWARDS ME?
SHOULD I FOLLOW MY DOUBTS OR SHOULD I JUST TRUST HIM?

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH EVER SINCE I LEFT MY 7 YEARS OF RELATIONSHIP.
ITS BEEN 4 YEARS LOVING HIM, GONE THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS.
BUT .. DOES HE APPRECIATE ME?
IF HE DONT, Y HE CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ME?
OK WATI.. PLZ OK.. ENOUGH OF ALL THE NONSENSE..
TODAY'S CONVERSATION WIF HIM VIA SMS, HANGS IN THE AIR.. NO ENDING, NO CONCLUSION, I GUESS THATS Y..

BABYBOY: TAKE CARE BUCUK LUV U SYG
ME: U 2 SYG. I LUV U2 3. 5 HARI LG I SUNYI TKDE SAPE NK BOBAL2
HIM: SABAR LA AT LEAST ADA DIDUT TEMAN U
ME: YE LA SYG. TP U LA MY SYG, MY BUCUK N MY FREN.
HIM: PE JE BUCUK
ME: SEE NOW I WATCHING MOVIE ALONE. JP LG DYA DA PEGI. TKPE LA ASL U SETIA I HAPPY
HIM: MESTI LA I SETIA
ME: YE KE? HEHE. I SYG U TAU. THIS WK I NK CARI KEJE LG. MUDAH2 AN DPT LA BARU BUCUK

TATS AL.. IT ENDED.

GOT TO SPEAK TO HIM AT PHONE AT 10.40 PM JUST FOR 5 MIN.
LIGHTS OFF HE WANNA SLEEP.
HE MSGED,
HIM: GD NITE PEKZ LUV U SYG

I'LL BE MISSING HIM.

BUT MY HEART STILL FELT UNEASY.