AM I SO BAD?

ITS REALLY DISAPPOINTING

WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG TO PEOPLE?

DO I HURT ANYONE'S FEELINGS OR DO I RUIN ANYONE'S LIFE?

SAY STRAIGHT TO MY FACE IF YOU DARE!!

DEAR PRINCESSES OF MINE

EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, EVERY SINGLE THING THAT MUMMY DOES, MUMMY WILL ALWAYS THINK OF THE THREE OF YOU

BUT I HOPE U GALS CAN UNDERSTAND, AT TIMES MUMMY NEED SO TIME TO SPEND WIF DADDY

• ADORABLE NATASHA SABRINA

I REALLY WANT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE FACING BABY. BUT ITS SO HARD FOR ME, AS I HAVE A LOVELY AND RESPONSIBLE FATHER, YOUR ATOK. I ALWAYS TRY TO GIVE YOU THE BEST THAT I CAN, BUT MUMMY IS SO SORRY THAT I CANT BE BY YOUR SIDE ALWAYS. I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN TO YOU DEAR. BUT I HOPE YOU DON'T BLAME ME WHEN YOU HAVE GROWN UP AND UNDERSTAND WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND

MUMMY DON'T HAVE THE INTENTION NOT TO GIVE MY LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR STEP SISTERS UNEQUALLY. I CAN ALWAYS SEE THE SORROWNESS IN YOU WHEN YOU SEE ME HUGGING AND KISSING UR STEP SISTERS. YOU ALWAYS ASKED ME WHY UR NAME IS BINTE ABDULLAH INSTEAD OF MUHAMMAD JAILANI. SERIOUSLY I DUNNO WHAT TO ANSWER TO YOU. ITS VERY COMPLICATED.BUT NEVERTHELESS, ERIN MUMMY LUV U AS MUCH AS I LUV UR STEP SIS. I CARRIED YOU HERE AND THERE FOR 9MTHS, AND ON 18 NOV 2000, I GAVE BIRTH TO YOU, THE PAIN I SUFFER, WILL NVER STOP ME FROM LOVIN YOU. ONLY ONE THING THAT I HOPE BABY PLS DUN BLAME MUMMY. YOU DUNNO HOW HURT I FEEL, THROUGHOUT THE 4 YRS WHEN YOU CALL ME KAKAK INSTEAD OF MUMMY, AND I WASNT GIVEN THE PERMISSION TO BRING YOU OUT TO ANYWHERE.

MUMMY SO SORRY

YOU WANNA BE A TEACHER RITE BABY? YOU HAVE ALL THE SUPPORTS FROM ME.

• ADORABLE NADYA SHAHEERA

BECAUSE OF THE PRESENCE OF YOU SAYANG, I GOT MARRIED TO UR DADDY, AND BECAUSE HE LOVES ME AS WELL. OF CUZ IM HAPPY OF YOUR PRESENCE, CUZ YOU ARE CONCEIVED IN MY WOMB BY A GUY WHOM I LOVE THE MOST. HE IS WILLING TO BE RESPONSIBLE AND OVERCOME ALL CONSEQUENCES JUST TO ALLOW YOU TO SEE THE EARTH. YOU ARE LUCKY SAYANG COMPARED TO YOUR STEP SIS. WHEN YOU FIRST CAME TO THE WORLD,ON 30 SEPT 2005, YOUR DADDY IS THE 1ST TO TOUCH YOU. UNLIKE YOUR STEP SIS, WHO DONT EVEN KNOW WHO IS HER DAD. YOU ARE SUCH A LOVELY GERL SAYANG, PRETTY, CUTE, ADORABLE AND CLEVER. I NEVER REGRET KEEPING YOU. AND THANKS TO YOUR DADDY ALSO FOR GIVING ME ALL THE SUPPORT AND BE BY MY SIDE ALL TIME.

NADYA, YOU RESEMBLES ME, BUT YOUR ATTITUDE RESEMBLES DADDY. IM SORRY FOR NOT BRINGING YOU HOME EVERYDAY. MUMMY HAVE TO WORK TO GET MONEY FOR THE 3 OF YOU AS WELL AS HELPING DADDY OUT. NADYA MY LOVE, BE A GOOD GERL AND DONT ABUSE MUMMY'S LOVE AND DADDY'S LOVE.

• ADORABLE NAYLI ARDINI

YOU ARE MY YOUNGEST BABY, AND THE ONLY LEGAL DAUGHTER THAT I HAVE. THE PRESENCE OF YOU AS A FOETUS, BROUGHT A SHOCK TO ME AND DADDY, BUT MUMMY WAS SO MUCH HAPPY TO CONCEIVE YOU. CUZ AS WELL, YOU CAME TO MY WOMB BY THE GUY THAT I LOVE MOST, YOUR DADDY. THOUGH DURING THE 9MTHS MUMMY AND DADDY HAD A LOT OF MISUNDERSTANDING, THE TORTURE AND BURDEN MUMMY GOES THROUGH NEVER STOP ME FROM BEING STRONG TO KEEP YOU ALIVE.

NAYLI, YOU RESEMBLES DADDY. YOUR FEATURES, YOUR MOVES, YOUR ATTITUDE. YOU ARE THE GAL VERSION OF DADDY AND YOU ARE THE APPLE OF DADDY'S EYES. YOU LOVE TO 'BABY JOKE'.. SO CUTE OF YOU. PROMISE MUMMY THAT YOU AND KAKAK DYA WILL BE GOOD GERLS, AND MUMMY AND DADDY WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DEAR.

GALS.. ERIN, DYA AND NAYLI..

MUMMY LOVE YOU THREE.

IT'S TUESDAY

3 MORE DAYS EXCLUDIN TODAY

LONELY BORED

READING THRU MY PREV POSTS, I GUESS MY BLOG IS THE MOST BORING BLOG

AGREE?

NO ACTIVITIES TAT I DID, ONLY SELDOM

AND IM ALWAYS POSTING ON HOW MUCH I MISS HUBBY

GUESS MY LIFE IS SO PLAIN

ESPECIALLY WITHOUT YOU BABY

AS MENTIONED, I GOT NO PLANS FOR LATER

MORNING TO WORK, EVENING TO MUM'S PLACE FETCH KIDS AND GO HOME

WANNA GET SICK AND TIRED OF IT, I CANT

ITS MY RESPONSIBILITY

WELL, FRENS DO ASK ME OUT, BUT I DUN HAVE THE MOOD AND HEART TO GO, AS I DUN WANT THIS TO BE THE CAUSE OF OF A MISUNDERSTANDING BETWEEN ME N HIM

BEING A MOTHER IS NT AN EASY TASK, AS A WIFE AS WELL

ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU GOT MARRIED INSTANTLY WITHOUT ANY PREPARATIONS

WELL FOR NEW READERS, IF THERE IS.

I WAS A SINGLE ABANDONED MOTHER FOR NEAR TO 5 YEARS

LIVING WIF THE TORTURE, THE INSULTS FROM RELATIVES AND HATERS.

HOW DO I OVERCOME?

I JUST PERSERVERE

AND I MANAGE TO GO THROUGH THE PAIN

IM NOT TELLING MYSELF IS PERFECT

BUT I GUESS IM STRONG ENUF TO FACE THE MUSIC ON THE MISTAKES THAT I HAVE DONE

I DUNNO Y IM POSTING THIS KIND OF ISSUES

MY MIND IS ALWAYS THINKING OF MY MISTAKES

MY MIND IS ALWAYS SAYING "IF ONLY..."

RICE HAS TURNED TO PORRIDGE

OR IN MALAY

NASI SUDAH JADI BUBUR

I'M REALLY THANKFUL TO ALLAH FOR LETTING ME MEET HUBBY

THOUGH I TAKE THE RISK

I WAS BEATEN UP BY A JERK, JUST TO BE WIF HUBBY

ITS SO UNBELIEVABLE THAT HUBBY ACCEPTED ME

SINCE THE INCIDENT AT ISTANA PARK ON 2005, MAKES ME TURN FROM A BITCH TO A LOYAL PARTNER.

TQ BB

TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS NOW

ENOUGH OF THIS WATY

TILL THEN

I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THE TORTURES AND STRESS
PARTY!!!
MISS THE O-BAR SESSION.

PIX TAKEN LONG BACK IN JULY 2008 SEH.
WIF HUBBY, YANA AND PARTNER AND MY LOVELY BRO IN LAW ACIT.

REBEL ON COUNTDOWN WAS THE LAST CLUBBING SESSION.
SHEE-SHA ING ON VALENTINES.
NXT PIT STOP?

BABY.. BILA LG NI.
DA STRESS TONGGEK SAK

WORK AND WORK AND WORK
IN 6HRS TO BE EXACT, START TO WORK.

RBS AGAIN
DUH

PS: BB SYG I MISS YOU SO MUCH
3MORE MTHS TO OUR 4TH YR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY