Me and love chatted on the phone for ard 10min before he knocked off to bed.
Thank god, it end up unexpectedly well.

He is like patient and nver a word of anger to me.
he is willing to find ways to get extra pocket money. I will always pray the best for you love.

Thanks for the patience and the change in you sudden.

Love u Muhammad Jailani.
But sorry love, im still disappointed and upset on the non stop problems that arise.
I still cant accept the fact.

Current photo taken at work
Current job
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While working at RBS

While working at OCBC

When i was ard 6-7mths preggie, moments at fellus or canary svcs...

Well.. below are 2 pics of my workstation.
RBS and the current one.

VS

Which one better?

I still miss my workstation at RBS to be frank.
Trying to adapt to the new one.
Havent yet realy decorate my table..

Hmm.. im just bored now.
My lil baby areadi asleep. When the day after im not working, she sleep early,, when i need the nite to sleep, her eyes are wide open.

Anyway, i miss the salary i used to get when working at the banks, even though always delay.. but what i get, it brings me a big smile. I regret not appreciating on wat i got. I always say my pay is stagnant. Now wif the drastic paycut,

I CANT SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today SUCKS.
I was feeling very uneasy since morning. But when i found out that the GSS money is in, im happy cuz at least got some back up. And cant spend much cuz need to help hubby pay insurance.

BUT!!

At 12.30pm when i tried calling hubby, seemed that it cant go thru. Tried calling home, but found out that my singtel line was cut off.
WTF seh!! Just call to deactivate value added services, line terminated juz because got OS. I paid, more than 1/2 of the o/s mthly. But still...
In order to reactivate the line, i have to pay $219.48 (sikit je kan!!!)
So i decided to pay. Ran down to SAM machine nearby and paid.
There goes my GSS money!!

Called hubby thenafter to let him know. As expected. He is very upset.
Im sure this weekend will not be good.
He will talk and talk and talk abt his stupid insurance thingy.
Actuli its enuf, UNLESS, we stop shopping. Just buy necessary, means no jalan2 no nite out STRICTLY. But i dun tink he will agree wif that!!

Ntah la nasib2...

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I was so moody. My mind is blank.
I wanna peace of mind sia.

Tomorrow is my off-day but the day sucks. It really ruins my plan.
Pay cut in my new job.. i really cant adapt.
Till when???

I wanna talk to hubby but he can never understand and never willing to be my hearing aid.
I need him, and i need love now.
Im feeling so down and depressed.
im LONELY now. Im scared to tell him how i feel.

No one can understand what im going thru wif him. He is loving exteriorly but interiorly, no... he is very hard hearted. I dun wish to elaborate further.
Im just thinking what is lacking in me, till probs arise and arise.

I doakan a good weekend in 3days time.

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IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE WEEKEND.