♥ ♠Jailani's ♥ Babydoll LovE♠♥ ™

2010-03-30T19:44:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

At last, im kinda satisfied. :) LOL.

Today i ended work early cuz its not my team turn for OT. Hubby is on night shift. Tomorrow and thursday, will will OT day for me, till 8pm.

Nayli had been so naughty ever since she recovered from the diarrhoea. Haiyo she non stop mengamok. Everytime must listen to her. Never she will shout and shout and shout.

As usual, i had been very busy wif work, and my mind keep always thinking of hubby. I just wish that he will change. Maybe ya... Tis wkend no plans yet even though long weekend. And oh ya... we had decided not to buy a car yet cuz of the COE price. So bo pien lor... Now buy instalment can die!!! Picanto so expensive oreadi... wat abt our lancer glx!!! LOL.

Hubby bought me a camerea, canon powershot... alamak model gua lupe la... He yesterday sms me say he loves me, (wowwwww!!!) for the 1st time i tried to ngadu to him my problems, but not all la... I dun dare. He listens. :)

For performance bonus money, i pay for the flight, bought some clothes, kids stuff.. and soon nk save for hotel.. Hairdo havent yet la...

K la.. nothing m\uch on my mind now.. My mind like going elsewhere laa...

Updates soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-29T22:34:00.001+08:00

guys.. Soon i will upload the pic of the ANJING PUKIMAK. U guys will soon c the betina k. Got the betina pic oreadi. She ugly la. Mcm anjing jgk. Mmg da digelar anjing... Yeah... EZAH HAMZAH IS HER NAME. :) BITCH BITCH SLUT.

2010-03-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

At mama's place again, today's OT is until 7pm only. Ok today i learnt something new. LOL. I shouldnt be new to this, cuz i've been working for nearly a year.. But mayb seemed they forgot to train me, and just today, i was forced to learn & do BUNDLES on my own!!!

I TOOK 2 FREAKING HOURS TO FINISH JUST ONE PATHETIC BUNDLE!!! OMFG....

Well, frens, i am from the processing side, at passport dept, i was posted to APPLES (online appln), since i started to work. So the job to me is at my fingertips, just editting photos via ADOBE tts all. Ya la apart from that counter duty la issuing passports to kiasuz.. Opps.. lol. So today finally i was given a chance to learn by post.. the deposit box and mail application.. hahahahaha after a year... LOL. I dun want, cuz i scared. This process requires a lot of steps and alertness as well, taking payments, and watch out for many other things.... Hahahaha. A colleague taught me only for like half an hr, then im on MY OWN!!!! Wah.. only GOD knows how i felt tt tym. MUKA MASHAM BABE. I shiver. I so scared sia... But at last... report TALLY la!!! Phewwwww................... :P~

Yesterday, was my off day. So its a stay home. Hubby worked nite shift again, we woke up at 12noon. Pigs la us.. tog wif nayli, then off to northpoint for our lunch, then rested at home..... At 8pm, i brought nayli to northpt again to meet radiyah & irwan. The meetup was to book our hotel for the KL trip. Nak discusi. LOL. the approval officer (jai syg) work... so we discussed without him la... We had dinner at sakura cuisine, then sat at mcd, till 11pm.. tt was the tym nayli became cranky, so irwan decided to lepak at my house... Ok la since i got wireless access.. can surf net wat..... So they lepak till 2am wif me... :)

LOL its funny la last nite.. after much discussion, debates, and quarrels, (so funny), we decided to take radius international hotel as the accomodation for the 3 nites... Everybody happy... All settled!!! Now just waiting for 21 may... our trip and of cuzz... my wedding anniversary :)

I miss hubby seh... td pagi he reached home at 5am, so cannot send me to work. I slept at 3am.. woke up at 6.20am... 3hrs of sleep only and i cant believe it i took TRAIN to work!!! That sucks sia!!! Lucky i can manage at work, thanks to my songs in hp... I work while singing and dancing... Hahahahha waty gila!!!

Yeah today mummy cook for me NASI GORENG CHILLI PADI again!!! nice! but sayang la no chicken wing fr nthpt foodcourt. Wasted la!!!!

Hmm....

TOmorrow i shall meet hubby in the morning for just a short while then again at nite... then sat working la.. till dunno wat tym....

Aku nk surprises ar i mean PLEASANT surprise can??

ok baby 7th and 8th april, aku tk keje... nak kuar g dating ngan hubby ku syg... :)

K gtg for now... Ive been eating a LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hubby jgn jahat2 k... slut2 yg u layan sume muka mcm.. oppz ... opinion fr many ppl la... mcm TAIK... so the burokz... errrr. Mane la taste u b.. da dpt bini lawa ... cukop la 1.. hahahahahahaahhaa :)

perasaan la...

Nitez world... nak surf2 net before going home!!!

2010-03-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

Its tuesday and tomorrow is my OFF day!!! WEEEEE! (=

Hubby will be back later at 3am and he will be wif me and kids till 6pm tomorrow before he knock off to work, nite shift again... Errrr I HATE IT SIA. OT is everyday again though they konon2 implement 3 teams, turn by turn OT.. tipu banyak la SOs... haiyazzzz.

People, slowly apply for passports can? Dun kiasu la!! So many thousands of you applying, we very tired you know!!! Hahahahaha.

I eat a lot nowadays cuz my baby is behaving well. Insya allah it will last.

K the holiday on our anniversary is to KL CUM GENTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We will be departing on 21 May 1255hrs via jetstar airline... and coming back to singapore on monday 24 may afternoon. Hope it will be 4 days of fun!!! Coming along is radiyah and my abg irwan. :) Both are my good buddies at work!! Tix booked, but only left wif the hotels.. still browsing thru. Mayb taking the radius international hotel. $210 for 3 days should be ok la rite.

MAY PLS COME FAST !!! I CANT WAIT!!!

24TH MARCH 2010, in a few hours, my PERFORMANCE BONUS will be in my account!!! Yeah yeah. Not much but ok la... alhamdulilah asal kan ade.

Guys, jom plan for the activities at KL!!!

Back to my family....

Kids are ok now. Dini recovered. Nadya back to school. Cute la them.... Hubby is sooooo... hmmm.. I FALL IN LOVE AGAIN WIF YOU JAI. He's been naughty lately. Found something at home, dunno where he get. Something personal. I cried at first but after knowing,.. its so funny. Cute la b... hahahahahahahaha.

Will update real soon then. Nak tgk2 hotels.... B i cant wait for our 5th anniversary!!! I'm sure it will be hell of fun...

LOVE YOU ALWAYS JAI... MUAAKZ.

2010-02-11T08:52:00.000+08:00

Im absent for work again today. Reason now is Nayli. Last nite she was ok when we got home from mama's place.Me and hubby brought her to playground, dinner wif her, then hubby played wif her, sang wif her nursery rhymes. Everything was ok. It was suddenly at 10pm i asked her to hug me, then i realise she was not perspiring, and her body felt warm. Checked her temperature.... hmm... 37.7deg. I gave her the calpol medicine thereafter. Brought her to sleep, with double layers of clothes, to make her fever go down, checked her temperature again 38.3deg... I panicked, but hubby said nvm just eat medicine, havent yet reacted in her body.... So i waited till 1am... her temperature was then 37.7deg. She complained that her head pain... I massaged for her and she fell asleep.

Then i had to massage the baby tua... cuz he said the impact of the fall still have... haha. At last i tink i got to sleep at 1.30am... Nayli had a peaceful sleep cuz i only wake up when the alarm rang at 5.45am... Then, nayli's temperature rose to 38.6deg... Oh my!!! I cant go to work la like that. She also cry2 dun allow me to get ready for work... I followed baba to mama's place, cuz our GP is behind mama's block. Her fever is down now, But her head is hot... Hope i can got 2 days child mc... Dunno lei... :(

Tomorrow's nite out pending eh guys sorri. Due to unforseen circumstanses. Im scared Nayli still sick, then she wants me to be wif her at nite...

Ok la. Nayli is sleeping in my arms now. Gotta get ready to bring her to clinic.

Then i will bring her home cuz i dun want Nadya to be infected... Haiyo later another headache.

HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON NAYLI ARDINI. MUMMY AND DADDY WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF YOU BABY.

2010-02-10T14:11:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone,

Today is my off day. Phewww.. after 11 days of waiting for a weekday off... At last. Its tiring nowadays, instead of massaging hubby before sleeping, i dozed off... And he also. He just fell down while working last 2 days, lucky its not major, just a bit of cut and bruises. Kesian kan dia. My hero.

As usual, i dropped by mama's place to let nayli meets her sister. Upon reaching, both quarrelled. Sakit hati. Kecoh 1 rumah. I brought nayli to macdonalds for lunch, and ta pao for nadya. Irritating sia, time flies so fast on a off day.

Tis friday, i might be going out wif hubby at nite, but cant be long cuz its a working sat. Sianzzzzzz/

After that long weekend comes. Will be spending time wif hubby. =)

No plans yet, but c la.. we wif the kids arr dunno where to go. Cab so expensive nowadays rite. And the kids and the dad hates sun and sweat. So how eh???

Tomorrow hubby will be back home late... dunno till wat time, 2am or 3am mayb... got to work at nite. So i can sleep or not eh.... :(

Things has been going fine between me and him now. He's back to be normal, cuz no disturbance from any sluts. :) Oh yah..... valentines day is tis sunday. And i have decided what to buy for him. Hope he dun kaypoh wanna meet me at amk hub tis friday. Im taking time off to buy groceries for kids, and at the same time to buy the thing for him. He got say, "i mintak release siang la syg, lau tk mcm ne u nk bwk pampers and susu sorang2??" ... so i was like... "mmm k la.. up to u b. but i had told mama oreadi, i will take cab go there, then she will come down and help me carry....".

I heard that today my frens need to OT. ala... boring seh. bsok ot ok la.. lau friday sorry., I've requested for time off a month back and its already approved. =)

2 days more to pay day. The ot claim is not much tis time round. but still ok la... At least more than usual. Cant wait cant wait. Kocek da kosong ar... Takkan nk mintak laki je kannnnnn...

Well2... nayli can speak quite well now. 4months more to her checkup... And of cuz 3 months to my wedding anniversary....

SO WILL THERE BE BANGKOK MY LOVE???

2010-02-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

hi everyone,

Waty is back again. Im now at mama's place. Hubby back late la. He got some case to attend *yawn*. Nayli is sick. Out of sudden, she has stomach aches... Wanna bring her to clinic, but mama say nvm.. ala if not can get child mc sia tomorrow. And friday mayb??? Kan bagos mcm tu. Jg anak, spend tym wif the kiddos.

From my last post, i became more phobia. Istri mane kan tak feel the same way as me...? Lau ade pompan kacau rumahtangga. Dunno la. I dun wanna be insane, I m kinda depressed. but im always hoping hubby will change and treat me better. \Especially no lies. Thats the most important. Insya allah la eh. Ive been feeling worried all the times, which i dun want to ... i wanna trust him but i know guys cant be trusted 100%.

I tried to tell him how i feel via sms. Hope he gives a positive thinking abt it. And never ever repeat the same mistake again. Ive been much tired so far. No outings, just home and work. Been teaching sabrina maths lately. And a prob arose, some one told me, in fact its like sooooo shocking and disappointing, About that, sorry guys, its too sensitive to elaborate.

I cant wait for pay day... 12th feb!! then holiday from 14th feb to 16th feb. Too bad this valentines cant celebrate much wif hubby :( Kids will be around. Mcm ne eh. Aku takot he disappointed. Wat should i get for him this valentines...??? I thought of a necklace. Cus his one lost . THe stupid old necklace.

I've been having big appetite this days. Eat and eat and eat... But $$$ no enuf.... Cant wait for performance bonus this end of march!!! A car ... hubby is buying. Insya allah... :) tp hope no one else enter the car xcept me his kids, my family, his family & his guy frens only. Yg lain leh blah. Betol pe................

hmmm... wat else? dya is ok., normal. Sabrina, been getting better. Tired tired tired. Been looking forward to the holiday that is upcoming... A vacation to go, and my wedding anniversary...

Till then.

WIll update.

2010-01-26T14:07:00.004+08:00

its been so long... aku da mls nk blog actulli. But nvm la... i tot of changing my blog name to jaja-gaga-oohlala.blogspot.com ... but hmmm ntah eh.. think adorablefairytopia still the best la... :)

im on 2 days mc due to asthma attack.. after 6mth. Its kinda bad, but ok la i can have rest till tomorrow. Something cropped up yesterday that makes me soooo fucking sad. Very2 sad. I really dunno la... I dunno what im feeling now, and i dunno wat to say anymore... Ku berserah padah Tuhan.

Well, how to be a perfect wife eh?? I wonder. I thought i am. Cuz i know im loyal, i fulfil his wishes... and i serve him like a king.

And another thing i wanna know... hmmm... husbands.. is it common for them not to show off their love towards their wifes or are they bored and malu of their wives...?? but i envy those couples who express their love in public... and indeed they are truly happy couple... I long the words of love from my husband, words of praise... romance... i really2 miss all that... Hmm.. i fucking dunno la...

Niway now im at mama's place cuz im bored. In the stage of recovery now... Tomorrow im meeting my dear cuzin, zura at northpoint. Just to meet for a while, to catch things up... :) And thursday back to work. Kinda miss work, surprisingly.. cuz i feel so lonely not working... Im not ready to be a housewife yet...

Weekends till cny, has no plans.. $$$ running down... Hope he plans for a day off just for me.. to spend quality time together...

Jai... pls I LOVE YOU... I REALLY LOVE YOU. PLS DO NOT DISAPPOINT ME BABY.

and to those sape2 pompan di luar sane, plz la... dun come into his life. and porak perandakan rumahtangga kita.. We are both happily married, wif 2 adorable kids.

Thank you, appreciate it.

2010-01-23T21:54:00.002+08:00

testing blog pakai mobile... Haha.

I still havent fix my pc la... Or maybe buying a netbook. Life so far been a smile to me. Hubby and me.. Alhamdulilah. Celebrated his birthday on countdown as normal. Everything went smooth.... Ok la will update again. Aku nga sakit ar. Nk tdo

2009-11-07T15:58:00.001+08:00

This is way out of the line. Everyday is oT. Goodness!!! I hardly have any rest. Stress sak.

21st november will be the day. I hope that day can create a bond back wif my baby boy. I love him so much. THe other day he cooked for me sweet & sour grouper & sotong. SHiok seh...!! Thanks love. I came back home from a long day shift.. and food is all ready !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love him loads

Today i had a very tiring time at work. Hubby involved in APEC duty. SO very bz.... K la will update soon.. esp abt 21 Nov... an early celebration for my 25th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-18T18:41:00.003+08:00

Today hubby is on morning shift, so decided to bring the gerls out. Planned wif radiyah and we decided to just bring them to amk for chilling session & to the library. Went out at ard 1.15pm.. and baba fetched me at 6pm...

We had lunch at macdonalds, and then sat outside banquet for a chit chat session while the gerls have a play. Met hubby for a while at banquet while he was on duty... TAu dia pn nak check out on us... lol

Then headed to the library and the gerls.. mintak ampon la eh.. punye la nakal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz tomorrow is a working day.. sucks.. nxt whole week primary school students tk skola which means disaster at work!!!!!!!!!!! singaporeans... typical... haiya...

Im so full now, though i just ate a little... but ... i dunno what to eat for dinner seh!!!

hmmm...

Yesterday i was kinda of happy cuz hubby is in good mood. I got fed up when hubby needs to work on my off day which is initially is his 2nd off day. Hope tomorrow i can change my off day to tuesday so we can have same offs together though 1st half of the day is to see him sleeping. :(

K la gtg for now... Oh ya.. never see the anjing anymore... good2....

But im still feeling guilty for Sabrina... yah... i know im unfair... :( 9 years have passed..............

2009-10-12T12:17:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.. Im sorry for not updating too often. Well i still havent got my PC fixed seh!!!. Haiya. Hari raya was spent well, lots of homiez visited and kids are happy as well.

Work is too STRESSFUL in terms of workload is rising and rising, ends up im on MC for 2 days inclusive of today and tomorrow.

Yesterday went jalan raya wif my dearest sis diyah, her kid shadiyah, me and the 2 rascals & jamz wif her princess. Went 2 homes its was fun. yes very2 fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today im at mama's place for a while, then will head home and meet my dearest policeman. LOLz

Well, there's ups and downs in my life so far.. Some good memories to be remembered and some bad memories to be shed. I had a dream last nite .. a weird dream.. but i dun wish to elaborate it here.

Ok another issue is regards to my WOMB. I had been having strong pulling pain on my cervix or womb i dunno?? AND end up im always in pain and unmovable. Im scared. Just now went clinic, but i didnt voice out abt it.. Haiz wasted seh. Im scared la... Or mayb my womb is not in tact at the correct position???

Still waiting for menses to come.... :)

Today wanna shop a while. Pay in.. no more worries of delays and cheats. Im happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

Till then will update soon ya!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-30T08:56:00.002+08:00

Hari raya is like gonna be over soon. Its already near to 2 weeks but i still got more homes to go. This sat, despite working and hubby will be on nite shift, my parents want me and kids to follow them go jln raya.. open houses to go. Penat seh....

At first i do not want to celebrate hari raya that much cuz of financial constraint, but alhamdulilah, first 3 days of hari raya, we have new clothes, though 2nd day was the 2007 one, but we wore all as a family same2 together. And last sat we wore our 2008 raya clothes, still grand and brand new, and im so happy for that.

Not forgetting, today im on childcare leave, and tomorrow as well cuz its my lil princess' nadya's 4th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! Da besar anak aku seh, and of cuz Mr Jai, she's ur 1st child.. arent u proud??? hmm.... Today gonna have a mini celebration for her birthday.

Im still using my sis lappie la.. so not much photo is in her file.. and i become more and more lazy to upload.. Anything more c my facebook k!!!!

3 more months, and its 2010. A brand new year, where new achievements need to be attained. Savings, car and new home. Thats the main concern. :)

I love you hubby, i hope u love me too. I do have strange and uneasy feeling about you but i try to ignore those feelings, mayb im too attached to you.. i dunno. My dear radiyah will keep scolding me for thinking bad abt hubby... :) K2 i gotta change and think positive.

My lil dini is getting much2 cuter.. and cleverer. And of cuz naughtier... And terserlah kepenatan ku....

Ok la.. updates soon, insya allah k.. if i got the time. :)

Catch me up at FB>.... jaja_n_jai@hotmail.com

love... MRS JAI

2009-09-12T16:29:00.002+08:00

Its so damn tiring nowadays. Workload is piling up and at home wif the housework i need to catch up on.

Today hubby is on morning shift.. and im on half day saturday. Im not at mama's place waiting for time to go to amk and buka at aunt's place while waiting for baby to knock off from work. Errands ive settled halfway and today i need to buy for the gals kasot raya.

Im really2 tired seh. I want another baby but if it really happens, i tink im gonna b as thin as a....? mayb juz safe sex every few days....lolz...

raya is coming and baby got leave approved on 2nd day raya. which means monday i must go shop fo rhis clothes. Planned to go arnold's city plaza this monday. We had rented honda fit for monday. :)

tomorrow is his nite shift. hell man!!! i gtta take care of the \kids alone in the day while he snores....

kocek pn koyak ni bulan kan... kueh.. langsir all havent buy seh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

ok la updates real soon. ade byk pic. tgk je la FB aku k!!! aku mls la nk upload.

to those who havent add me.... jaja_n_jai@Hotmail.com .............. find me @ fb...

2009-09-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

I guess this blog page is getting much more boring. Reason due, its hard for me to update as im using my sis's lappie, and i can use it only for a short while. After iftar, ard 8.30pm latest, i have to rush home to get ready for another day.

I tink i feel triple tired, restless. All i can do when i reach home is to sleep. Even when babylove is around, i still sleep. Cant have much time to spend together. Both of us are bz with work and esp now hubby is on morning and nite shift & sometimes his dbl off days fall on my working day, it happens MOST of the time seh. SO irritating.

Cant believe it tat i havent finish preparing for raya. 1 more week to pay day and then i can start buying all stuffs. Mendak jgk seh tkde advanced pay. :(

Im everyday at mama's place, eat wateva they cook. Sometimes i get sick and tired of it. I work sooooo hard, but the money i get in return, its always not enuf. The short of money problem is always the big issue for me to think and results in migraine.

Raya ni tk jadi sewa kereta, just wanna pinjam kak jamz car, as she agreed for a day. Nk kuar byk2 pn .. byk pakai duit and energy. G mane2 yg penting je la...

Tgk la kejap lagi da nk alek. Babylove on morning shift today. SO tak tau kul bp dia balik today. Bosan ar... Wat to do... Wifey of a police officer is NEVER easy. A lot of sacrifices needed.

One news tat makes me sad, hubby doesnt want another child. He say stop at 2. So no chance for me to get a son... angan2 je la waty................

Tomorrow, i'll be iftar-ing alone. Hubby nite shift ar. Mendak sak. Mendak skali.

****Baby, wateva it is, i will stay patient, and i will stay strong to move on. Just for you syg and our lil ones.. The reason... i love you b. I miss spending time wif you syg... Hope we can find some day that we can have sweet sweet loving*******

2009-08-31T18:37:00.001+08:00

This ramadhan is a blessing mth though tiring.. Nothng much happened. Just preparing for raya which im not looking forward to.. reason being hubby is working on that day.

The theme is black and purple.but i havent decide for me and him.

Sorry guys i did not update that much cuz i got not time and no mood.

Anyway to all.. happy ramadhan.

2009-08-23T17:32:00.002+08:00

NI SI MANJA NGA TDO LEPAS SAHUR

Today marks 2nd ramadhan, and its my 1st day fasting. Im trying to learn to fast sincerely. Alhamdulilah, i feel strong today. Hopes it goes on the same throughout. Hubby on morning shift today so tts y i can blog freely at mama's place. Im not looking forward to celebrating syawal this yr... cuz hubby will be on morning shift tis 1st syawal, and finiancial crisis la....

Hmm.. spend the day wif lil dini, and managed to take some shots.

2009-08-19T19:40:00.006+08:00

K2 i've uploaded at last.. more at FB. hahahahaha....

Sit back, enjoy and relax!!!

2009-08-12T17:09:00.001+08:00

yeah da gaji!!!!!

where is my baby... on course but not back yet.... hmmmm....

will have dinner out wif him later on hopefully and tomorrow back to work... sighz.....

and im addicted to HOT LIKE WE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

or should i say hot like HIM... my baby love...:)

2009-08-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

Oh well guys, my pc is still DOWN. haiz. i cant upload pics i cant do many other stuffs... so boring!!!

Well, just some updates, yg da basi, last mth, baby brought me and kids to sentosa for a picnic wif his campmates. He has already passed out from camp, and posted somewhere nearby home :). Thats good.

Times are quite bad la from then till now cuz of some financial shortage.. but baby... did not even sigh. Instead, he cooked for me seh. I took quite a long leave to spend time wif him. We stayed home. Just the 2 of us. He cooked for me cereal prawn, kentucky chicken, and CHILLI CRAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nana, tak yah susah2 nk suro ur hubby g newton... haha singgah yishun ade CHEF baru.. hahahaha lol.

Ok2... we struggled and in the end.... 12th august is tomorrow. Our payday. He is like such an amazing husband, father and lover now. Thanks love. I appreciate it. THe bad news is only... he is working morning shift on 1st hari raya. :(

Work is ok but sometimes like shit. Oh well.. biase la.... i dun wish to elaborate yah....

Some updates on some ppl... makes me laugh la.. hahahahahahahaha.. sudah la.. cant put it on AIR.

Ok guys will update soon....

Puasa is coming. Raya is coming. I have NOT even prepared anything. Ni la aku kan.... hmmm....

2009-07-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

Time spent wif hubby love... fun!!

Wif kids and im loving it!!

Long holiday,... till friday!!!

And and and the anjing is wif an old man... wakakkakakakakakakaka

big smile in me...

*** PHOTO UPDATES VERY SOON***

2009-07-22T15:53:00.002+08:00

that bloody fucking bitch is back, and she is now at yishun branch delifrance.

mcm sial nye puki nye anjing nye mak. One look at her face, bwk sial abis. puki tiang.

how can she still be alive? she dun deserve to be a human.. she is an anjing betina muka babi.

sial.

2009-07-20T18:52:00.002+08:00

I'll be away for till donno when.
My pc spoilt.. so need to send repair first which will only be after raya i guess. Will update if im off and im at mama's place.

Sorry guys....

2009-07-16T20:48:00.003+08:00

6 days to go.
Tomorrow hubby coming back home, but he still need to book in back to camp on monday and come back.. nt sure tues or wed.

Today is the end of my long rest. Off on tuesday, which i was already very sick, mc yesterday and today. Alhamdulilah, its getting better now. Not much coughs, no more running nose, left wif shivering only. The morning was at home wif lil dini, and when i fell down, while hanging clothes after wash, i sms-ed mama to drop by and fetch me to her place. And of cuz i did not inform her abot my fall.
I suddenly felt so nauseous.

Dini is very2 irritating today. I had kind of rashes on me, i felt so irritated and she kept on coming to me and asked for milk even though she just drank it. I had to shoo her away all the time. Very irritating though she is cute.

No plans yet for the weekend. Saturday is a working day. But i hope hubby wont sigh abt our shortage of money. I hate it when he sigh, mcm tk tau syukur. Keep on asking me.. cukop ke tak? then when i plan the budget, he dun budget. Then my fault.
Then he said... lau duit tk cukop boring seh, i cuti. Its as if its all my fault. Blame the stupid insurance. So expensive!!

Ar stop talking abt that makes me madddd!!!

Had bakso just now at mama's place. I force myself to eat. I managed.
At least i have a bit of energy.

till then.
will update soon.

2009-07-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

On and off fever.
Bad cough, chest pain resulted in asthma.

Thats wat im suffering now.

2 days mc till tomorrow. I need plenty of rest.

2009-07-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

counting down.. 8 days to go.

The plan today was, to take back my hp from the service centre. But i was truly disappointed. So old school hp till dunno when. Sucks.

Then, from blocked nose, to fever, to flu then to slight asthma, bad cough. What will be nxt tomorrow? I dun wanna waste money going to clinic to take MC sia cuz i still have the medicine at home. But i hate it when ppl look at me inside the train like as if im a virus spreader in singapore.

ANd i dunno if i can tolerate standing up in the train for the whole 40min journey.

Hmmm..

One whole day baby did not return my sms and my calls. He called me at 7.30pm. Busy again. I explained to him y i suddenly got sick. Its due to the cat's furs!! Well. i m allergic to animal's furs since young and especially cats!!! I used to have neighbours wif so many cats till she lost count, and some of the cats pee and pooed outside my house. Stupid rite!!!
He believed me at last.
Baby, im not exxagerating. Its fact.

Tomorrow working day. Enuf of the break today.

2009-07-14T14:57:00.002+08:00

Ok..SONY ERICSSON SUCKS OK OK OK!!!

THEY DUN EVEN BOTHER TO CALL ME TILL I PICK UP OR SMS ME. I RECEIVE ONLY 1 MISSED CALL, AND WHEN I CALL BACK NO ANSWERS... AND IN FACT I DID EVEN CALL THEM AN HOUR BEFORE I COME DOWN TO COLLECT MY HP. BUT THE FUCKING INSIST THAT THEY DID CALL ME MANY TIMES, BUT THE FACT IS THEY FUCKING DONT!!!

I USED TO BE A LOYAL CUSTOMER OF SONY ERICSSON, BUT WHEN THIS FUCKING STUPID THING HAPPENED... SIGH.. I RATHER CHANGE TO ANOTHER MODEL. SO TILLNOW IM STILL USING THE STUPID LOAN HP. SO IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!!! BONUS QUESTION.. WHEN WILL I GET MY HP BACK????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-14T10:50:00.003+08:00

Gonna get my hp back today!!!

Quite a number of things to settle but seem lil dini is still in wonderland. TIme checked: 10.55am.

Hmmmm

2009-07-14T00:39:00.004+08:00

The ICA gerls... crazy ones!!!!!!!!!!!
smalll celebration @storeroom cum makan place at ICA.

Kak Zurinah and me wif the birthday gerl..centre.

The newbies at passport section ICA. 3mths approximately has passed. We've been thru thick and thin together. A small gathering .. its all worthwhile!!!!!

The sweety newbies of passport section ... ehem...

Sarah!!!! hope you enjoy!!!!

:)

p/s: thanks for the pix.

I cant sleep yet. Insomnia.

2009-07-13T22:49:00.001+08:00

He's kind of crazy in this current sms wif him.
Dirty mind u.

He did not say he miss me though.

U make me think more abt u and cant wait to have more of you.

Bugger!!

2009-07-13T21:15:00.002+08:00

9 days to go...

The day was ok. Had sarah's birthday celebration during lunch time just now. We bought her a braun buffel wallet, and 2 small cakes. Had camwhoring session, courtesy of Jamilah's and sarah's camera. Pics will be uploaded soon once they forward it to me.
Celebration was done among the 7 of us.. the newbies of ICA. Where we had gone thru thick and thin together through the 3mths. They are nice people and always makes me smile. :)

I had fever last nite but now fever gone, rashes gone.. comes the waterfall on my nose. Sucky!!!!
Its like sooo irritating seh. The stupid liquid keep coming out from my nose... eeee..
(haha dun be disgusted ar....)

Tomorrow is my off day. changed shift wif one of my colleagues on her request. Good enuf so i dun need to waste money go clinic take MC. I cant be doing frontline rite wif the mucus dripping and dripping. lol. Ppl will say disgusting!!! Image mau jaga ar....

I had my pau sambal bought by bff ku simah.. tq syg.. its soooo delicious!! and dinner was lemak wif ikan masin and sambal belacan. Kampong jawa style buttttt.. shiok!!!
K la.. will update real soon.

TOmorrow got some things to settle.. and i will get my hp back!!! at last!!!!

2009-07-12T20:13:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY LIL SISTA...:)
MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU.. WIF A BRIGHT FUTURE AHEAD AND A HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS LIFE.

LUV U!!! CUZ U ALWAYS MAKES ME CHEERFUL AT WORK :)

c u tomorrow lil sista. Better come ok!!!!

2009-07-12T19:18:00.003+08:00

Counting down to 22 July.
Wee...!!!

OK. Weekend was pretty good. Friday nite i reached home a bit late. Brought kiddiez back. ANd on saturday headed over to in law's crib. Got a few things from sis in law. Thank u adeq.
Sunday, today, was a household shopping day. Brought the kids for breakfast cum lunch at banquet AMK, and went to the hub for some shopping. THen brought the kids to coffee bean for snackings.

Got home ard 2pm, and i was down wif high fever. Took medicine that i got fr my family doctor last may. It worked, the fever is gone.. but prob is... rashes came out below my EYES.. and now below my right eyes there is a big lump. So ugly!!!!!!!!

TOmorrow must come to work seh. Got some impt stuff to do. Cant elaborate now. Scared some ppl read this. hehe.

Hubby has went back to camp. He has become a better person day by day. Thank you sayang. Brand new week tomorrow. MOre savings need to be done. As ... he will have a loooooonggggg holiday from 22 July onwards to 3rd august!!! And.......i will be on leave froom 28 July to 31 July!!! Weeeee!!
But sat 1st aug still need to work.. half day ok la... :)

10 more days to go........

***SOMETHING TO ADD.. I GOT HUBBY'S PIC THAT WERE LIKE YEARS BACK.. CUTE, MATRIP KENTAL SEH.. HAHH.. BUT MY SCANNER ROSAK CANT UPLOAD. WASTED!!!****

2009-07-12T19:13:00.002+08:00

How i wish FAEZAH sial yg tinggal sembawang used to or maseh working at delifrance as a manager tu baca blog aku. haha.. and his x pon. MASYITAH is it? or whoeva la... his x x x...

I still cant get FAEZAH. Oh no she has a name. I tot she is an animal slut. Bila dia nk mampos...

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2009-07-11T10:56:00.001+08:00

DEARIES PLS TAKE NOTE. PREVIOUS POST IS JUST ME POINTING OUT MY VIEWS.

FYI.. ME AND HUBBY ARE LEADING A HAPPY MARRIAGE LIFE, AND HE IS PASSING OUT OF CAMP SOON!!!

ILY MUHAMMAD JAILANI...

2009-07-11T10:25:00.002+08:00

Scandalism is widening.
Its happening all around.
What is your point of view??

Let me share mine..........................

Lets talk abt married couple.
I shall start off with, a lady having an affair with other man. What are the possible reasons that she do so?
To me, be it you are a man or a woman, scandalism is a 101% NO NO. Once you are married, put a stop to it babey. You can have as many scandals as you want when you are single, cuz no one can stop you, you are not tied up with anyone. But once you are married, u belongs to a man, no matter how bad that man is, you cant just go around to find a replacement. If you cant tolerate the attitude of your husband, you should let him know, rather than play behind his back.

BUT!! The singles who loves to scandal around, you should find ONLY UNMARRIED MAN. Y should you get a married man, though there are still loads and loads of bujang out there looking for soulmate? So what if that man, is rich? loving? BUt be alive, he belongs to someone.

Ok.. maybe that guy, lied to you that he is single, which happens all the time. If then you find out, he only has a GERLFREN, then to me... hmm.. best woman win la ar.. U nor the lady neither has the rights to say that the man belongs to you. But if you find out that the guy is.... MARRIED, hey bitch by all means LET GO OF HIM. I dun say i only blame the lady but i also blame the man.
Bertepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi.

But usually the problem is right... the lady will not want to leave the man, in fact, she will say that the man's wife is at fault. She is not perfect. Hey AKU PANTANG NI MACAM OK. No matter how bad is the relationship of a married couple, who are you to interfere or help??? Its between them to resolve the matter. If you can say that the wife, cant give the extra love that the husband wants... mayb there might be some reasons behind that.. could be,
-the wife is sick
-the wife is tired (she works more than husband, or shifter)
If you can say that the wife is very high maintenance, and ask many2 things from him....
- if the husband is drawing a high salary or not, she has the rights to ask him for ANYTHING.. Y? his money belongs to her ok!!! If not husband, who else she should ask?
If you can say that the wife cannot give zuriat...
-if the man loves the woman, no matter wat is the condition of the woman, the man will accept. You as the 3rd party has no rites to give him a baby, unless the wife allows him to marry another one.

Talking abt this, if a wife allows the husband to marry again, then, the 3rd party is not at fault. She is then also a legal wife of the husband. But a no way to me la eh. Wait long2.
So like for people like me, we are selfish. OF cuz we can be. He is our husband. If we find out our husband is having an affair the 1st thing we will do is to confront him.. and of cuz the lady. And the lady can never say i got no rites to confront her. She is at fault as well.

So gals who is having an affair wif a married man secretly, get alive ok!!! IF you had sex wif him, you are worse than an animal. Takde hati perot. What if your own husband does it to you? What will you feel and what will your kids feelZ???

As for a man.....................
SOme man, they are just naturally GATAL, BUAYA DARAT. BODOH NAK MAMPOS. They have perfectt wife, maybe in a sense of looks, wife is sooo gorgeous, he will still fool around. I mean SOME not all. Some wifes, are so obedient, give him whateva he wants, he also fool around. Some guys can never have enough satisfaction, which i dunno y........ I still cant get the conclusion y? Sakit kuat ke??
Da dapat yg halal, yg haram pon nak.

Some.. bini keje penat2.. dia bwk pompan balik uma.
SOme even ada anak wif the scandal, and give the monthly money to the kids.

TO me, if you have an anak luar nikah..
plz la eh gerl, tak payah nk mintak nafkah dari lelaki tu la. even if he is single or married. The child is illegitimate. You have the full enpowerment on the child, in Islam rules. It is not advisable for him to give you the money. Kalau the guy betol2 responsible, then get married!!! Tak yah nk g court turon naik mintak maintanence. Lain la if korang used to be married, and nak tuntot, tu lain cite ar kan. Its just my point of view.

I dun ask my x, for money for my kid, and neither do i allowhim to see his daughter. cuz he doesnt want to marry me in the 1st place, and y should he see his daughter?
Unlike my husband now, he is a responsible person. So.. he marries me once he knows im pregnant.

TO conclude,... scandalism should be brought to a STOP.
There are so many single ladies and men out there whom can match make wif one another. No need to retak kan rumah tangga org lain......

Plz.. get alive. Put yourself in the victim's shoes. You will feel hurt and disappointed.

**And one thing to add, you might come across, a lady who will not let go of her husband although her husband had an affair. She is not desperate. Tat is love. She does not want to be divorced, lau boleh she wants to save the marriage. That is sacrifices not despo...
And man also.. who gives wife another chance, that is sacrifice out of love.
So the lady or man yg kene buang at last kan.. jgn nk mengamok. You are also at fault. You are the cause of the kegoyangan rumahtangga. yes, U are at fault!!!!**

Well.. we woman will suffer if divorce happens.
Dedicated to my bff.

She used to be a victim of a scandolous affair... a slut and a bitch.
It all has ended...

Any comment............??????

(",)

2009-07-09T19:28:00.006+08:00

Its already 6mths plus that i have been a 'loner' on weekdays, and tis will end very2 soon.
He said 99% chance.. 22 July is the last day.
Weeee!!!

So means i need to take leave on.... 27,28,30,31 July!!!. Hope it can be approved.
Tu pn if hubby got plans. If not then i try to apply on 30 and 31.
Enuf of sufferings seh.

This mth will be quite a bad mth financially due to insurance renewal.
Wasted. His long holiday seh.... He muz come out ways to enjoy the weeks and by then after he start work officially, no chances of taking leaves.

My hp ... 5days to go. I will be collecting it on wednesday afternoon. As my offday remains unchanged. Last min.
I've been budgeting all this while seh. Good good good. Have to go on all the while.
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Well, as usual im missing that fellow. Miss his everything la.. its been 4days since i last hug him. Oh my.. if only i can get to lie down on his chest... hehe :)

I pitied my bff. The 'setan' in her life, nvr stop to make her in trouble. Till when tis gonna stop seh. Get on alive la eh, tt 'setan' pn da ade pengganti 2 lak tu not 1, big and junior. Tu pn maseh nk mengganggu and menyusahkan. Irritating asshole. This kind of 'setan' should be given life imprisonment seh. How the big pengganti can superglue wif this 'setan'.. selamat la nyah. Tak lame lg lu nye turn. Dulu kene ngan tudung periok, nnt dia kene ngan tempayan plak... wakakakakakaka. Stop!!! Its their life. G la mampos.

to bff i love you la. may the 'setan' disappear forever soon.

i always tink abt her. she is such a strong woman who can struggle all along and survive, high maintainence lagi. ALLAH is always by her side. She is sincere, innocent. Im sure, her life will not be ruined, in fact, a better life in the future. Sometimes i cried when i tink abt her life, but what can i do...? i can only pray the best for her.

How i wish i can be as strong as her. if i were in that kind of situation, i will .... give up soooneest. tts me, im not independant.

luv u bff. (u know who u r)

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Alhamdulilah, my marriage life is going strong. Love is still blooming, although sometimes that fellow breaks my heart. Kids are getting cuter and cuter.

Ya allah, thank you for your gift to me. though, you dont give me wealthiness now, i am love rich.
My hopes are on hubby baby. He has many things in his mind:

1- settle all bills/loans
2- buy a car (lancer / avante)
3- buy a new home (4rm flat upgrade)
And once the 3rd wishlist is accomplished.. many plans coming up.... First, aim for the 3 dulu.

What else can i say?
Im proud of my love. And i hope he wont repeat the same mistake again.

ILY Md Jailani.
Mummy love u 3 princesses..

Natasha Sabrina... u wont be left out. i promise. When i have the luxury, u will be given as well. As long as you know that mummy is still around though our unknown dad is dead long way back. You still hve your step dad.

Nadya Shaheera and Nayli Ardini... gals, what can i say? u 2 r ur daddy's pets. Love till the end of time.

till then
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2009-07-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

Back from sony ericsson service centre at junction 8. Lala and bibiah, both my aunts accompanied me. Waited for quite long, ard 45min for my turn.

My hp had to be send for servicing till 3pm sunday is the earliest day for collection. I was given a loan phone for the time being. Hp orbit sak. Haha nvm la for the time being rather than no hp seh.
My hp is still under warranty, but since i dunhave the receipt, they did not know the exact date the hp was purchased but good enuf the manufacturing date of the hp was 17/11/08.. less than a year. Wah henggggg!!!!
So all was assured F.O.C.

After that we went to the food junction and i had my nasi ayam penyet. Nice! And im full now.
Thanks lala for the treat!!!
Rushed home thenafter cuz dini need to be sent back home.
Im relieved that my hp at least could be sent for servicing rather than to throw it away and i had to buy a new hp, a cheap one in fact.

So.. plans was to trade in that G705, then to get hubby a new hp, and at the same time, to apply for a new line singtel .. mayb $0 plan? and get a new hp for myself, but of cuz i wanna c wwat hp first.
Takkan yg tak guna and yg bukan touch screen aku nak. Eh leh belah ar...

So tomorrow and friday will be boring in the train without my MP3...

Cant wait for the weekend to come.
Pay day as well.
At least pocket penoh skejap.

Kids are all fine.
Erin, dya and dini... my sweet lil ones.

And of cuz and for sure.............. i cant wait for my KING to be home.. my sweet babyboy.... jai syg husband ku tercinta.. i miss you la bucuk!!!

2009-07-07T21:44:00.003+08:00

Regards to yesterday's issue, its not yet solved.
:(
My hp is still not functioning, i can only receive incoming calls, tts all. I cant even press any button accept the red and number button.

Will be going to sony ericsson service centre @ bishan j8 tomorrow wif lala.
Hopefully something can be done since i still have the warranty.
If not, i got no choice but to buy a new hp, a cheap stupid hp.
:(

I will get so stressed up abt this.
If only the stupid singtel never cut hubby's line, my money is more than enuf to buy new hp.
If only in may i trade in my hp, and get a new one, i will not suffer.
Rite now, its too late.
:(

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Day at work was tiring today.
BOredom strikes.
Like shit.

I find tat its much and much more difficult to get thru hubby though he has more classes instead of training. Sometimes i got so fed up till i bang my home phone. Hope it will not end up like my hp. haha. lolx

Lil dini is already asleep. Seeing her now as a 2 year old toddler, my heart cry out of happiness. Syukur alhamdulilah Allah has given me 3 wonderful kids. Lil dini, is catching up as well. The duplicate version of her dad. Lil dya is still as cute as eva, and Erin, as stubborn as ever.

What am i doing now?
Time checked: 9.51pm.
Still waiting for tat fellow to call me.

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Hope for the best tomorrow. I want my hp back for the moment, i want my pics, my contact lists...

Dear frens, wish me luck!!

2009-07-06T22:18:00.001+08:00

Im in a fucked up mood.
I dun wanna be bothered.

My hp spoils and he still can scold me for no reason.
Im uncontactable, worse than line was cut off.

Fuck wif my life.

2009-07-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

Time checked:
half an hr to 12am
half an hr to monday
half an hour to a brand new week

Im sleepless
When i see the bed empty at the rite side, im sad.
Tats hubby's place.
He makes me laugh and smile the whole weekend despite the difficulties we are facing.
Im missing him though he just left me 5hrs ago.

When will all this end?
Tomorrow marks 6mths of his incamp training, and i cant believe that i had survived and sacrificed without him during the weekdays. I passed the survival test. I had became a bit more independant, compared to last time,where so many things i cant do on my own. He pampered me too much though he always break my heart.

Monday blues. I hate it. Im supposed to be on leave tomorrow. BUt i will cancel it tomorrow.
No use to be on leave. He is not at home.

Well updates will be later after work.

NItez world.........

2009-07-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah, he is all fine. Only that he is drenched. Kesian kan baby aku tersyg tu.
As long as he reached his destination, im fine.
thats my main concern.

2009-07-05T18:50:00.001+08:00

I'm freaking worried!!

Its raining so heavily and hubby just went out riding to camp.
Supposedly tomorrow is his p.o.c... but its extended. Sucks. Im scared something bad might happen to him. And its such a pity to see him drenched before going in to camp.
:(

Hoping he is fine. will be waiting for his sms.

Yesterday when kids are out wif my family, me and hubby went to northpoint. Just some shoppng for snacks. Headed home, had our dinner packed home, by lestari. Nice dinner.

Kids are back ard 9pm. I was so malu, when i saw that my cuzens gave my kids presents. 2 each summore. I dun even give the birthday kids anything. Im so ashamed. I dunno wat to sms them but i wanna say thank you.
I wanna go for the party and buy them presents, but im really out of budget.
Haiz. Its so shameful of us seh.

Haiz.. kak maya and kak bibah, im so thankful, but im too embarrassed to say to you guys. You 2 been too nice to me, and my kids. But im always not giving ur kids anything. Im so sorry.

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Hubby been quite manja to me in a sense. He dun mind me sitting by his side nw. We joked together. Share stories... Chatted. No more silence at home.
Im happy that our communication part has improved.
We are goona be 5yrs together next yr.

Love him loads.

And kids... are getting fatter. hehe.
Dya -13.7kg.. last weight taken was 11kg
Dini - 11.4kg.. last weight taken was 10kg

(",)

2009-07-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

All alone at home wif hubby baby.
Kids are out wif my parents, off to my cuzen's place for a birthday party.
Hubby decided not to go as he wanna stay home. He is very tired. Respected his decision and i accompany him at home.
The kids are soooo cute just now seh. Like hard to release them. But my dad really want his grand daughters to go...

No plans at the moment. Hubby is buzy watching tv while me bz blogging.

I m kind of sick. Cough wif a bit of fever in the morning.
Wat a weekend.

Updates real soon!!

2009-07-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

This post is gonna be for my only sister yg betuah whu declared that she does not know how my love story started. Goodness!!!

Well, it was christmas day in 2004, and i was very2 sick, down wif bad cough and asthma attack, therefore no way that i can party to club tt nite. I met my fren or so called colleague, at that time was working at Efusion for a while, aat the bus stop near my home, and she introduced me to him via phone call. I dunno how he looked like. Talked for a min cz i dunno wat to say, and we exchanged no.

he sms me, no talking on the phone. His birthday was on eve new year ,i did not know he invited me, i was at boat quay n he was at ecp. Fine. Wished him happy birthday and there goes the conversation, the sms-es. But im reluctant to meet him. At tt pt of time i was having a serious relationship that was oreadi 90% failure. I was looking for a new partner and someone whom i can be wif for long. I became very2 fussy.

Xchanged photo via MMS
ok azie, MMS not internet ar!!!!
Hmm.. 1st looks at the photo..not my type sia.. mat motor, wif specs and the beads necklace.. haha.. i simply say NO. frens can but i doubt we could get along.. But my lil bro, hakim forced me to try to go for a date wif him.. and i remember the date till now... 120104.. the 1st time we met, and he fetched me at my void deck. And thts when the love at first sight comes along........wakakakaka.. hensem nye dia!!! lolx.
But i wasnt serious at the moment, cuz to me all guys are fucking bastard.
They just wanna have fun. So i go on wif the flow and c how. We had our 2nd date on 170104 at changi beach, and there goes our 1st kiss. Haha, and on 180104, was when we konon2 officially be gf bf... and thats the day i conceived nadya. lolx

Only on end of jan, when something happened that i dun wish to elaborate, i realised that he is the one, and fr then till now... he is my TRUE LOVE.
He knows my past.
He accept me for who i am.
He is responsible of wat he did, tts y he marry me to be responnsible for lil dya without hesitation.
We dated for 4mths before we got married. And now, we are already together for 4 years.

So azie, where is the INTERNET ...? haha
oh plz.. i find internnet dating guys are just purely jerks. haha.

Allah made us to be together. Jaja and Jai.
Miracly. Out of nowhere he came to my life and love struck and last forever.

Remember those sweet memories, i feel like turning back time, and get his loving lovey dovey caring love again................

2009-07-02T21:07:00.002+08:00

burp!!!
shiok, nasi wif lemak ayam cili padi.

thanks to mimi,
sedap gila nyah.....

think im growing fatter day by day.
today's consumption:
~sardin epok2 for breakfast wif warm soya milk
~beach road, nasi goreng ayam wif iced lemon tea for lunch
~delifrance pizza, while waiting for dinner to arrive
~and lastly... nasi wif lemak cili padi for dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just wanna make myself happy. Ease my mind. I wanna gain a bit of weight. But not towards obesity of cuz. I wanna have a glowing smile on my face, to be happy go lucky again.

And finally, thursday gonna be over in 3hrs.. and yeah its TGIF then!!
Weekends coming. Yabadabadooooooo!!!!!!

Which means....... my Mr Fred Flinstone will be back home in less than 24hrs... Wilma flinstone will be more than happy to knock off from ICA building and travel towards Yishun cave.

Fred Jai Flinstone & Wilma Waty flinstone
(",)

Im crazy yet still brain functioning!!
Wakakakaka.

2009-07-01T22:38:00.002+08:00

babyboy syg... he makes me cry out of happiness and surprise!!
i received a call by an unknown no... its an sms... 'goodnite love'.. touching seh. Hp aku kan rosak. I mean the fucking stupid sim card. Still engaged till now.

I dun want to change hp no. Dunno la eh.
Nevertheless, i can have a good nite sleep. After receiving the sms. Tapi si babyboy tu.. kol aku lik, tanye dpt tk? then he laugh2 nk c if aku puji dia ke ape.. haha
cute seh b..

nitez world. im working tomorrow.
and.. lil dini not asleep yet still battery full charged.

*sigh*

mr jailani, i love you.
you are the most wonderful man i ever met.

2009-07-01T21:28:00.001+08:00

ANOTHER STUPID FUCKING THING HAPPENED.
I WAS IN THE MIDST SMS-ING SIMAH, AND THERE GOES... I CANT SEND AN SMS TO HER. I TRIED TO SMS HUBBY ASO CANNOT.

SOMETHING IS WRONG.. AND WHEN I TRY CALLING MY HP, ITS ENGAGED!!
THE RECEPTION BAR IS FULL AND ON MY HP 'SGP M1 3GSM' IS SO CLEAR. SO, MY LINE IS NOT CUT. ANYWAY ITS PREPAID AND I STILL HAVE LOADS AND LOADS OF VALUE ON IT.
MCM SIAL KAN!!

IM UNCONTACTABLE NOW. I CALLED HUBBY VIA HOME PHONE, HE SCOLED ME FOR CRYING. OF CUZ LA, IF I HAVE NO HP, HOW TO CONTACT HIM?? DIA SUKE LA TU, SO AKU TK TAU MANE DIA SUME. NBCB AR!!! AKU BENCI!! AKU BENCI SAK!!

Y MUZ ALL THIS HAPPEN TO ME OUT OF A SUDDEN...
TAKKAN NK BELI PREPAID BARU SAK. WASTED KAN THE VALUE. IF I WERE TO BUY.. I TINK IT WILL STARHUB THEN. NO CHOICE LA.. HAIZ...

BAD LUCK SIAL!!

2009-07-01T14:07:00.003+08:00

Its my alt wkday off today. I had planned to bring kids out bt due to the last min prob that cropped up, i had to cancel the plan. Im now at home, and in a while, will be heading to my mum's place.

Its kind of boring. Like a wasted off day.

Well, i have some things on my mind. will update later on my thoughts.

Wanna bring my lil dini to my mama's place now.

2009-06-30T23:05:00.005+08:00

Me and love chatted on the phone for ard 10min before he knocked off to bed.
Thank god, it end up unexpectedly well.

He is like patient and nver a word of anger to me.
he is willing to find ways to get extra pocket money. I will always pray the best for you love.

Thanks for the patience and the change in you sudden.

Love u Muhammad Jailani.
But sorry love, im still disappointed and upset on the non stop problems that arise.
I still cant accept the fact.

2009-06-30T22:03:00.002+08:00

Current photo taken at work
Current job
-_-

While working at RBS

While working at OCBC

When i was ard 6-7mths preggie, moments at fellus or canary svcs...

Well.. below are 2 pics of my workstation.
RBS and the current one.

Which one better?

I still miss my workstation at RBS to be frank.
Trying to adapt to the new one.
Havent yet realy decorate my table..

Hmm.. im just bored now.
My lil baby areadi asleep. When the day after im not working, she sleep early,, when i need the nite to sleep, her eyes are wide open.

Anyway, i miss the salary i used to get when working at the banks, even though always delay.. but what i get, it brings me a big smile. I regret not appreciating on wat i got. I always say my pay is stagnant. Now wif the drastic paycut,

I CANT SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-30T19:32:00.002+08:00

Today SUCKS.
I was feeling very uneasy since morning. But when i found out that the GSS money is in, im happy cuz at least got some back up. And cant spend much cuz need to help hubby pay insurance.

BUT!!

At 12.30pm when i tried calling hubby, seemed that it cant go thru. Tried calling home, but found out that my singtel line was cut off.
WTF seh!! Just call to deactivate value added services, line terminated juz because got OS. I paid, more than 1/2 of the o/s mthly. But still...
In order to reactivate the line, i have to pay $219.48 (sikit je kan!!!)
So i decided to pay. Ran down to SAM machine nearby and paid.
There goes my GSS money!!

Called hubby thenafter to let him know. As expected. He is very upset.
Im sure this weekend will not be good.
He will talk and talk and talk abt his stupid insurance thingy.
Actuli its enuf, UNLESS, we stop shopping. Just buy necessary, means no jalan2 no nite out STRICTLY. But i dun tink he will agree wif that!!

Ntah la nasib2...

***********************************
I was so moody. My mind is blank.
I wanna peace of mind sia.

Tomorrow is my off-day but the day sucks. It really ruins my plan.
Pay cut in my new job.. i really cant adapt.
Till when???

I wanna talk to hubby but he can never understand and never willing to be my hearing aid.
I need him, and i need love now.
Im feeling so down and depressed.
im LONELY now. Im scared to tell him how i feel.

No one can understand what im going thru wif him. He is loving exteriorly but interiorly, no... he is very hard hearted. I dun wish to elaborate further.
Im just thinking what is lacking in me, till probs arise and arise.

I doakan a good weekend in 3days time.

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IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE WEEKEND.

2009-06-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

I only got 4hrs of sleep, cuz lil dini slept at 1.30am!!
I woke up in the morning feeling so dizzy.
After bathing, as usual, i will put on light make up. BUt today is monday so i need to trim my eyebrow. I opened the blade, and fuck!! i cut my left middle finger, and its a real DEEP cut!!
Blood was gushing out non stop even after i put it under running tap water. Lucky hubby kept a first aid mini box at home. I got the antiseptic gauze or someting, (its like a cloth use to stop blood after injection).. it works. the blood stopped and i put on handyplast.
Sigh. Wat a relief after tat.

I felt that something bad gonna happen.
And im right. Im hated by many at work.
I dunno till when this kind of thingy will stop. If its my looks that makes ppl hate me, ALLAH je la yg leh ubah bentuk muka aku. HE gave me this kind of looks, and who r u to judge.
Or if its abt my dressings, mind you, im not wearing anything revealing, not like im wearing 'chaos' clothes to work.. duh...
Im affected by all this stupid shits that make me lazy to go work tomorrow. All eyes will be on me, will be pin-pointing on my dressings.

OH NO IM BEING WATCHED.
like NBCB!!

***************************************

Yeah LUP gonna start at my corridor. Soon in a few mths everything is easy for me. Esp now baby is working shift.

Somethiing mum said - aku tak kesah la if kau nk bersalin lagi.
haha i tink she also wants a cucu lelaki.
DANIYAL ERFAN coming soon....!!!

I really2 want la... but not now.
Now is time for a car and to clear all loans.

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Some stupid ERA telesales people call my home looking for hubby. Asking whetter do we have the intention to sell our house as people are looking ard to buy a flat fr my blk.
Kau nk byr levy aku pe?
I still got 2 1/2 yrs to go. Wait long2 ar.
Me and hubby had plans to sell off this home and upgrade a new one.
Earliest in 2011.. latest... 2020?

He has been looking far ahead planning for the family.
So how can he ever cheat me??? Those fucking bitch out there yg ye2 nk laki aku kan.. tgu la eh smp kau mati. HE LOVES ONLY ME, YES I EMPHASIZE AGAIN, HE LOVE ONLY ME!!!

lalalalallalalala

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Kak nooraini said - aan is a good boy, im sure he is faithful to u , lucky to have him.

kembang gue babe!!

2009-06-28T21:01:00.004+08:00

Im suddenly so in love with this car.
Chevrolet Aveo5.
Nice and simple.

If we can buy a car soon, i want this baby!!
THIS PARTICULAR COLOUR.
SUPER RED.

Anyway i saw this particular car but white, SJP plate, off peak car,at the carpark behind my flat. Its always there, since the 1st day i saw the owner polishing the car.
Like so stupid rite. Tot only go out on weekends or nites since its an offpeak car, but whenever i look out of the window, or walked past there, the car is at the same lot all the time.

Weird.

2009-06-28T19:03:00.002+08:00

Its such a short weekend between me and my loved ones. I dun have enuf of them.
My kids are so adorable this weekend. They behave. I mean, controllable.
Due to H1N1 stupid virus, babyboy has to be incamp by 7.30pm. Mendak sak.

Now all alone wif my lil dini.

Tomorrow's back to work.

Saturday was a working day for me, and a simple outing wif my loved ones thereafter. Just to northpoint and the library. And sunday today was just to NTUC to get food.
But kids are happy.

Private times wif him.... Amazing. haha lolx.
Cant elaborate further abt it k.
My sexy baby.. hahahaha.

*a big smile on me*

2009-06-25T21:29:00.004+08:00

I really long for a baby boy since I already have 3 princesses.
Haiz.. is just that i cant afford to have another one now, no one to take care, and i doubt babyboy wants another 1.

Tis few days, i have been dreaming of having a baby BOY. Till i had a dream last 2 nites that is like sooo true...... konon2 i give birth to a baby BOY on 30 December 2013. In 4 years seh!!
Its so perfect kan!! by the time im 29. And i had said to myself, my last pregnancy muz b before im 30.

Haiz.. its just a dream
=(

I shall name him DANIYAL ERFAN BIN MUHAMMAD JAILANI.
And i shall call him... effie boy.
Tak malu sak. lom pape da berangan

Ah, jgn layan ar.. mood aku today gila!!

Well anyway work was very2 slack today. As usual again, i ate a lot like... ehem..
But mind u.. i wont be fat arrr...

1 more day to babyboy yg badak nye return home.

2009-06-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

I love him but i hate him at the same time.
I miss him but he makes me mad most of the time.
I wanna be pampered but he is so serious.

When i ask whether he loves me, he nvr want to ans.
When i ask whether he misses me, he said 'sudah la...'

It will always b the same after every conversation on the phone.
Such a pain in the ASS.

But then I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!

2009-06-24T19:51:00.002+08:00

I was given a flu vaccine just now at work. Pain seh!!
Now my left arm feel so heavy.
EEEE i hope no fever. The needle is sooo thick. Scary seh.

This saturday is a NO off for me.. :(
Exchanged duty wif my fren. Its ok la no money no work la.. better still seh.
If not got to spend so much money esp on breakfast.

Work is very relax today. Love the weather today. So cold and cozy.. if only just now im at home.. can zzzzzzz all the way seh.

Will update again.

2009-06-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

Today im disappointed wif my dressing!! I wear some merepek clothes, and when i look at my reflection, i feel like vomitting. I look like shit!! And im bored wif my hair. wanna cut fringe but i got no time. When i got time i always forget. Stupid rite!!

Noothing much happened today. But im a bit worried abt the stupid H1N1 case. Its like spreading more and more seh. Tomorrow plak, flu vacinne kat keje. Alamak, aku da la takot injection!!
My frens say its quite painful. Seram kan!! Then lenguh2 tangan. Eh benci sial!!

Haiz.. no choice.

Im now home alone wif lil dini. Watching Anugerah.
Supporting NORA, my ex schoolmate. The pretty and talented lady.
Hope she goes through the next round.

Just got to speak to babyboy twice. Miss him seh.

2009-06-22T22:39:00.004+08:00

Babyboy craves for CHILLI CRAB!!!
Padahal on last sat dia aru mkn dua ekor. Tak ke cekik darah tu namenye. Kalah pompan mengandong. He will bring me for another seafood session soon. And i will make sure he order for me my OAT PRAWN.
He is like so manja today.

him: boring seh u nk tunggu 4 hari aru u bleh garuk badan i...
(he msg me this out of sudden)

And before his nite sleep a while ago .. he msged...
him: Gdnite pekz bucuk.. badan i gatal tp tkda.. boring. luv u bucuk.
me: badan gatal je cari i, tp tk rindu i.
him: sudah la peha gemok

haha.. he call me gemok now, juz bcuz he saw me having a hard time wearing my jeans. Jahat kan dia.
If its like this everyday, he will always make me smile. This is how manja he was 4yrs ago... He got hands but like got no hands, got fingers like got no fingers. Everything i muz do for him. Havent talk abt massaging. Tts my job every nite before sleeping unless im sooo tired. Then exceptional case. Kdg2 pn mesti, nnt dia bunga. Mls aku nk layan. Haha. Then aku jgk yg rugi.. cant get to hug him in my sleep.

Miss him loads la sia. 4 days to go!!

Back to my kiddiez. Brought them to northpt. Initial plan, to bring them eat nasi ayam then to go to starbucks for a caramel frappe and oreo cheesecake. But lil dya decide to go to LJS instead, had lunch ther and bought the pineapple cheese pie. Anak2 sholehah kan tu!! Tknk waste duit mummy dia.. hahhahaha...

Dya had her haircut. She look like babyjepon. Chubby round face seh. Same like the mother. Ehem!! *wiggles*

Had sent dya to my mum's place and now back to square one, home wif lil dini only. Monday is gonna end. Tuesday to come. Back to work tomorrow. Wat a child care day leave....

2009-06-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

Well there are many things tat i really wanna buy. But it will take time for me to get.
Here are some of the items that i long most!!

I want this LED Tv!! So thin and style sak.Samsung Jet!! Nak jugak!!

This HTC diamond 2 .. hubby wants it. Soon i hope he can get one.

Lancer EX the car of my love's dream.

New room look for the kids.

Baby quick!! Let's shop for all these SOON!!

2009-06-22T09:24:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY
TO
NAYLI ARDINI.

Time passed very fast!! 2 yrs ago, this date, i was all alone wif hubby at home. I was given this date for appt at labour ward, for an induction process, to bring the baby out. Its due to some complication - very low blood count, and very low water level tat needs to be treated immediately. I was a friday in 2007.

The appt was at 1pm, before coming down, i had my last lunch at mcd, eating cheeseburger. I headed to kkh via taxi, while hubby riding his bike. He need to do that cuz he knew that he will stay long at kkh, or mayb overnite.

I was then induced at 3pm. No pain and i was brought up to the normal ward. There comes the hell. Ard 5pm, the pain came and it was soooo unbearable. I shouted loud, and was brought down back to labour ward. No time for the switch to be poked on my hand. I started pushing once im on the bed. But my lil one refused to come out. I had a very2 hard time. Till now i still remember the pain. At exactly 7.23pm, lil nayli ardini first touched the earth wif the presence of 3 nurses, 2 doctors and of cuz my love.......

Alhamdulilah i gave birth to a healthy, pretty and cute princess again.
Hubby baby was so happy at the moment. He then changed to be a better person till now. No more scandals, no more torture.

Till now, its been 2yrs... My 3rd princess is still healthy and strong.
Mummy loves Nayli lotz.
Nayli is so cute.
Nayli is so adorable.

I had a dream last nite. Dini passed away. Astarghfirullah. No its just a dream. Forget abt it.

As a mother i wish that Nayli grows up to be a useful person, clever gal.. and not to forget the elders. Amin.

2009-06-21T23:17:00.001+08:00

I guess i failed to be a good mummy. I can pamper them wif $$$$ , things and luxury but i cant discipline them alone.

Love just went away to his camp 4hrs ago, and things cropped up. First, their quarrellings, then them messing up the whole house. When i tried scolding them, they refused to listen to me. Unlike when their daddy is home, they dun eeven dare to go against the rule.

Last, dini knocked on the door edge, resulting in a huge lump on her forehead. No blood just avery huge lump. Im so scared. I dunno wat to do. She can still play but cmplaining on the pain as and when. I hope its just a minor injury. I dunno how to relay this to babyboy. Esp abt dini, his fav one. ANd worse her birthday is in half an hr!!!!

Oh dear. Im so disappointed in myself. What will happen in the future?
What is my mistake? Did i pamper them too much in the 1st place?

Sigh**

2009-06-21T19:42:00.005+08:00

Last nite, 20th June, was baba's birthday as i mentioned in the earlier post. Went to superbowl hougang to celebrate baba's birthday. I was just watching them bowl... Hubby played as well.

After that we headed to Malabar cafe @ lor ah soo, used to be the Arab cafe tat me and family always had dinner when i was single. Had seafood. Me, my dear and mama paid for it.

From daging merah, to sweet and sour chicken, to pari bakar to chilli crab and... my fav nestum prawn!! Friday had seafood and yesterday as well. If this goes on. I become FAT seh!!
And anyway i've gained weight!!

Back to today.. had wished my dear HAPPY FATHER'S DAY. Of cuz, to my dad as well whom i had wished at 12am just now. We overslept, and woke up at 11.30am. Asked baby to bring us just to northpt foodcourt to have our lunch. Baby had his nasi campor, kids forrever wif their nasi ayam and me, the mee taibak..

One more thing. from friday till today, hubby wants me to wear the red t-shirt he bought for me, the adidas liverpool t-shirt. Cuz he want us to be same2. Nasib aku tk busok sak. 2 nites and 1 afternoon in a row pakai same baju. Haha.. cute la baby.

He is back to the stupid camp oreadi. Worse he need to come 1hr earlier. Cam cb.
its been 3 weeks he book out early, no need to go back camp.. now its back to usual. 1 week without him. I hate it seh!!! Benci!!!
Tomorrow another event coming up.
Lil NAYLI ARDINI'S 2ND BIRTHDAY.
I'm on childcare leave tomorrow just to spend time wif the kids. I planned to treat them at starbucks for an oreo cheesecake!!
But too bad, my love is not around. I wonder when when when is his passing out date. He himself dunno. :(

Well tats it for now. Im happy and everyone is happy.
But now im sad cuz i start to miss him. I have to wait for another.... 120hrs for his return. And then back to square one again.

2009-06-20T16:25:00.001+08:00

Nite of wif hubby yesterday, dinner at KTM, nice seafood sia. ANd accompany him to go play pool wif his frens at marine parade. Headed home at 1am, and i had a snoring day at work just now.
Haha.. anyway, im happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABA!!!
51 years old.

Tonite, going to superbowl hougang wif my family to celebrate baba's birthday.

Updates soon...

Loving you jai... muaakz

2009-06-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

I had KFC 2pc chicken meal for dinner.
Thanks to jamilah for giving me the coupon,and the food just cost me $4.50. The idea of eating it struck my mind in the midst of working just now, when i was sooo hungry and nothing to do at work just now.

Lil dini is now busy eating her macaroni. She doesntt want me to feed her. She wants to do it herself.
I suddenly misses babyboy so much seh.

But, there is something that he mentioned yesterday that makes me a bit disappointed. Well, i dun wish to elaborate it. I guess he dun mean it. Babyboy.. i hope that the past wont haunt him.

I cant wait for him to be home tomorrow. But shucks im working this coming sat!!! Got only 1/2 day sat and sunday daytime to spend wif him.

Menses!!! im late for 1 week oreadi. Oh no.. ppl at work keep on saying there's a boy in my stomach. NO NO NO. i cant afford to have another 1, and i know its very impossible seh. Wateva la. ANyway im confident enuf the red light will come very soon.

Anyway, hubby's bike insurance is... $501!! GILA kape!!! Kepata otak sial.
There goes our $$$$$$$$.

Nak enjoy ape sial. Bonus pn takde.

Mendak.

2009-06-18T20:03:00.006+08:00

Its been 4 days since i last blog.
REASON: BUSY MELAYAN SUAMI
lolz

Well it might be quite a long post. Lau bosan, nk tertdo ke, sila kan.. blah la eh.. haha.
Monday was nothing actuli cuz both of us worked and he only reached home ard 10pm. I brought dini for a walk at pasar mlm.

When tuesday came, i was sooo excited. Cuz hubby is on OFF day, and he had plans for me!!
***Well, ppl will say, da kawin, dudok sebumbong pn nk excited2 of going out together. Mind you, we seldom meet due to his training. Tat's y i feel so excited when it comes to time to spend wif him. And its soooo difficult to find a time to go out only the 2 of us.***

Baby fetched me home from work. He rented a suzuki swift... Brought me to amk hub to buy kid's stuffs. And off we went to my mum's place to visit the kids as they stayed the nite there.
We went to mustafa centre ard 10pm for some shopping till ard 1.30am. He then brought me to marina barrage for a walk, and then to mount faber.. and last to ecp for supper.
Reached yishun ard 3.30am... and we had our quick drinking session in the car, at our hs carpark and off we went home. And then PRIVATE SESSION. not to be disclosed.
kening naik2 la eh

Wednesday.. is the day we brought our kids out. FAMILY DAY!!
We went to 4 places in total. Pics are from the last till the earliest.

Went to ECP for our lunch. No pics taken. Had our lunch at subway.
Then off we went to marina barrage, to let the kids have a water playing session. As shown, the below2 pics... Cute kan dorang....

Next, shopping time, went to tampines. No pics taken as well.
BOught for dini, playing heels and dya a doll.

Last, hubby last min plan to go to changi beach to let the kids see aeroplane and a mini celebration for dini's 2nd birthday in advance. Had a photo taking session as well.

The day was fun but tiring. He makes me smile. Tuesday date makes me love him so much, and wednesday, though it started wif some commotion, but as the time passed, its fun and i feel that we 4 are such a hhappy family.

Below are the pics taken.
Enjoy browsing!!

One happy family

The sisters wif their beloved father

Ni part takyah introduce la eh.
Mrs jailani... weee!!

My lil dini... in 4 days.. she is already 2 years old!!

Photo taking in the car. This was taken after the tampines trip while going to changi.

MARINA BARRAGE!!!

JAILANI'S FAMILY

Daddy jai, Mummy jaja, Lil Dya, Lil Dini.
and not forgetting Erin.

Baby.. thanks for giving me such an adorable family. Thanks for being such a superb hubby and daddy of my kids. YOu are the best sayang.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
I might not be your 1st love but i know
IM YOUR 1ST TRUE LOVE. and indeed you are as well.

I dun care wat they say...
I know you want me & you know i want ya....

You are my hot babyboy, my cutey pie...
Thanks love.

2009-06-14T12:32:00.002+08:00

My sweet babyboy had alredy reached home. And kesian nye.. he reached ard 10am. Kesian kan? He managed to sleep only at 11am. Cant disturb him now. He is too tired and he needs to rest cuz tomorrow is another day for him, morning shift.
And tell me 'bout it!! im working tomorrow!!!! arrr shit. Monday blues sak.

Father's day is exactly next week, my dad's birthday is also nxt week. I decided to give jiji some money and share wif her to get him a gift... birthday cum father's day. And as for hubby, i dunno sia. Hope he can get a car ke.. then we can go sumwhere wif the kids to celebrate daddy's day... Hmm.. mummy's day dia uat dek je!!!!!

Well rite noow, kids are playing wif their toys while me bz blogging.
Once tomorrow ends, tueday comes... and tts the day im waiting for.. and wednesday as wel.. our FAMILY DAY!! my off day luckily seh.

That's it for now. Will update again.

2009-06-14T00:31:00.005+08:00

Well, this post is gonna be... full of piczies. My cute lil ones, and my family.
Too bad my babyboy is not ard.

Its just a small bbq-ing session. We had satays, hotdogs, chicken for the bbq.. and mama and mimi cooked mee siam, epok2 as well. And not forgetting mee putih for the kids.

I went there at 7pm, thanks to lil dya who die2 doesnt want to take a cab. She wanna take bus there, despite babyboy's instruction wanting us just to hail a cab to go to mama's place for my convenience. I had a hard time in the bus. I got a seat wif dini, and i have to hug my poor dya who is standing up. Lucky its just 4 stops away.

Food is superb!!!!

The spiral hairstyle i made for the so called birthday gerl. Lawakan dia....

The kids are too happy and excited. Took pics of them 2 at mama's void deck before going up.

The food!! Courtesy of lau pa sat and home cooked by mama and mimi.
Im soooo fullll....

Sabrina helping out my dad do the bbq-ing. She just do it for fun.
She seems very happy as well

Photo session of my princesses.
Last pic: Sabrina is buzy eating after a hard time outside doing the bbqing...

Headed home and reached @ 11pm.
Result, the kids were naughty at 1st. Doesnt want to sleep just wanna disturb me,, but in the end... they fall asleep just like magic.

As for me, im INSOMNIA. Babyboy aint home. 1st nite shift after 4 long years.
Missing him loads.

2009-06-13T13:34:00.001+08:00

Kesian kan babyboy, have to call me using payphone. Al because of his stupid singtel line,whic will be reactivated in half an hour.

He queued at hello! store, for 45min at the info ctr.. at last the cust serv said they cant help. He has some prob, and this prob is to consult the hotline himself. Buang masa je sial.

Kesian kan dia, ard 6+ he has to go to work and then it will end till nxt day in the morning 9am?? maybe.. He for sure will be tired. Kesian dia. He's now buying lunch for all of us. He will be back very soon.

His hp line will be activated. Selamat. Bodoh tol. Charge mahal2 irrelevant things also charge then as if i nvr pay for him every mth, nk cut. Just nvr pay full.

Ok la... gtg now.
Wil update tomorrow wif the pics of the bbq-ing tonite mayb.

ciao!!

2009-06-13T12:49:00.001+08:00

Babyboy is off for his medical checkup since 9am. At 11am its still not his turn yet though his appt is 10.30am. Cock up sia amk polyclinic dental. And mind me, its not subsidised, a full private rate pymt. And he is treated such a way. My goodness!!

Babyboy is not in the mood since last nite cuz of his singtel problem. Stupid la. I've been waiting for his long holiday seh. I mean, him to be home everyday. This will be till wednesday and i hope it goes on smoothly. Im kind of disappointed now.

Anyway, i had given the kids breakfast cum lunch cuz kita 3 beranak ni mcm babi tk tau nk bgn pagi. We woke up at 11am. Hahaha.

Will be heading to mama's place later evening.
9 days to lil dini's birthday. 2nd birthday but she is still baby talking.

Sigh
ZzzzzZ

2009-06-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

Weekend is here... but he is on attachment, and be doing nite shift tmrw. Wat a waste. Celebrating dini's cum mama's cum baba's birthday tomorrow nite, some bbq-ing session, but with the absence of babyboy.

I miss the times that we can spend together as recently he is too bz wif his camp duties and now the attachment. Cant wait for tuesday and wednesday!!

Babyboy will be back very soon. He ends work at 8pm, and im now home wif the kiddiez.

Pay day today, but the money is already decreasing. Havent even use it for my own luxury purpose. Sob sob sob. More to pay, but now wif his money. Wahaha. But kesian ar... I hope he still got enuf so he can pamper me....

Work is ok but its like a sleepy day today.
Lil dini is having slight fever. Wat a day. She is always sick now, time to hunt for good vitamins for her... And dya as well.

Rite now, time checked, 8.35pm, the kids are messing up the home and in a while.. i will hear the nags of baby boy...

zzZZZZzzzz

2009-06-10T20:50:00.002+08:00

I'm rather bored wif my hairstyle now. Everyday the same. I dunno wat to do wif my hair. Waiting for the hair to be waist length like takes wonders!!

Well, apart from hair that need to be done something... i have lotza things to shop by rite. But when i saw my pay advice... ITS PATHETIC. Its not that i dun appreciate wat i get.. but it doesnt match the tasks that im doing currently.
Well, just think abt the stability la kan....

Anyway.. what i want is.. new pair of sandals... muz be bling2... a new sling bag... a touch screen hp.. and wat else... too many to mention la...

Hmm.. tmrw is thursday!! 2 days more to struggle the zzzzz days at work.
Ever since i got a permanent seat, its like zzzzz. No fun like used to be. Where i joke wif my lil Sarah, fr my batch.

Hubby will be back tmr!! yeah!!

Poses of my precious ones.
They are the diamond of my heart.
Looking at these pics, makes me smile, they look so cute and alike.

Well, thats it for now.
In the midst of chatting, and im having headache now seeing the messy living room courtesy of nayli ardini.

2009-06-09T22:26:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for next week to come. This weekendd is not gonna be fun.
He has plans for me... nxt tues & wed!!

Too bad i had to go work nxt tues. Feel like applying for half day.. but i dunno. Full day not approved. But hubby said its ok. He will fetch me aft work... and gonna date out at nite!! Best kan best kan!!

Mendak ar skg. Nothing interesting happened... and oh ya....

10 June tomorrow.. its mama's 47th birthday. And i had bought for her brooch.. ordered online via a fren of mine. I hope she like it.
Celebration will be done on saturday. So next.. baba..20 June.. 51th birthday. i got no idea yet wat to buy for him. And then... my lil precious baby.. Nayli..22 June... 2nd birthday!!!

Bankrupt sial June.

Upcoming events:
15 -16 Aug : Aziemah's chalet
19 Aug: Aziemah's actual 21st birthday

20 Sep: Hari Raya

28 Sept: Mimi's 55th birthday
30 Sept: Nadya's 4th birthday

1 Oct: Nadya's checkup

1 Nov: Hakim's 20th birthday
18 Nov: Sabrina's 9th birthday
27 Nov: Hari Raya Haji
28 Nov: MY 25th BIRTHDAY.. (this is YIPPEEE!!)

Last but not least,....

31 December: Hubby baby's 26th birthday!!

These are the events i remember at the moment.. mayb more to come?? I'm not sure....

2 days for his comeback.
3 days to payday.

2009-06-08T19:52:00.003+08:00

Im back from a hectic day at work. Lil dini is back home but she is fast asleep. Which means... IM GONNA HAVE A HARD TIME TO SLEEP TONITE!!!

I kinda have NO mood today, cuz tis wkend will be the same as last wk. Kinda disapointed cuz my family had planned to make a small feast for dini's advance birthday celebration on sat nite.. but hubby will be having his attachment, and on NITE shift. Damn it!!
Sunday he will be at home, but of cuz i will see him SNORING throughout. He will be on OFF, tuesday and wednesday. I tried applying for last min leave on tuesday so that i can have more time to spend wif him... but too bad... its NOT approved. :(
Left wif wednesday je. Boring kan!!! Wednesday is my official off day. So cantek.
Planned to go to the zoo wif kids... Hmm.. will try to get the FREE zoo pass that i am entitled for.

Abt love life, im trying my best to trust him 100%, but i still cant change myself.. to think abt stupid2 things.... like will he fool me? will he two timed me? will he....?
I hate myself sometimes.
This will always happen when we cant spend much time together.
Now, he's still incamp, i can only meet him on weekends, but now his weekends burned.. duty and duty and duty. Fine, then when he passed out, he will be on shift and tats it.. our offs do not tally~~ i will have my fixed off days on alt weds, alt sats and all sundays. But him?? It all depends... Public holiday pn jgn cakap la... It has been 4yrs since he worked shift seh. He started to work office hours since july 2005, when i was heavily pregnant.
So now... i have to learn to ADAPT.

Moral support... of cuz i will give him. I appreciates hubby got a MUCH 101% better job than before. And his dream to get a LANCER ex, of cuz.. will soon be true.. Its just a matter of time.

If you happen to read this baby....
Just for you...

My love for you will nvr end.
My love for you will nvr fade.
Nver will i forget you
Nver will i put u behind.
You are my everything.
My life and my soul.

Luv you loads baby.

I dun care of all the insults. I know that we can prove to everyone otherwise... You can prove that you are a responsible husband and father, and you can build a happy family.
As i said.. its just a matter of time.
~GOD'S WILL~

Thats it for now.

Will our fairytale... have a sweet ending...
AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

~~JAJA & JAI~~

2009-06-07T13:50:00.003+08:00

Some snapshots of yesterday event.
I love the wedding gown. So nice.
And my cuzin looks sooo sweet.

Foto takings familia.
Mcm2.. tkde keje...

My cute lil kids are in red. Si sabrina tu.. ilang ntah ke mane wif her small aunties and uncles.
In 5 hrs we there, i can see her only 1hr...

Kids have fun. Mum happy.

Still have my karaoke session's video to be uploaded. ar... haha.

2009-06-06T20:44:00.002+08:00

Work was buzy just now morning. But i find it fun. I still manage to go back home on time. Yesterday nite, dini did not go home cuz its easy for baba. No need to fetch her again in the morning.

Went to kak siti's wedding alone at jurong east. As last i wore my gold baju kebaya which was sewn in 2005. The only 1 that i can wear, can fit, and selesa. My body is so small but my stupid hips are like enormous for my size. Errr.. gt to go on diet!!!

Anyway i stayed at the wedding till 6.30pm. Fun, not boring. Haha. I was wif amok, my bro all the way. I was sabo-ed by my uncle to sing in front of everyone. Paiseh sak, cuz im the 1st to go. Luckily its a duet wif amok. Lol. We sang 'aku cinta, aku rindu' nurul and ajai. Hubby no hep mah... feeling2 alik kenangan lame, when me and hubby sang this song together at k-box hahaha.
Sis took a video while i sang. But not sure how to upload. Haha.. tp malu ar.. haha. C how, if can i upload. Pics to be uploaded soon as well.

I love her last baju. Wedding gown. So nice and make kak siti looks so pretty!!

Well, now im back home wif the family. Kids had fun time as well, playing and partying!!!
Hubby is always complaining he's tired. Pity him la. Gotta work the whole week, no rest.

Ok then will update soon wif the piczies and videos!!

Catch up ya!!

(",)

2009-06-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

Hubby is back. But he is on duty tml. and sat and sun.
Bosan kan. Menyakitkan hati sak.
Stupid home team convention.

I had a big fight wif some of my N.O.K. which i dun wish to elaborate further in front of hubby, and he got mad. Im paiseh. He saw everything.

Well, sat thingy, im still thinking.

What is gonna happen to ma life sia. I got a good husband now. but my NOK, like.... haiz but not my daddy syg ok.

Gtg. Tomorrow another day to work. Work is getting more and more fun. I mean the clans ard me. Will update soon.

I miss my lil ones.

2009-06-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

More than 60,000 civil servant will not get their annual variable componet bonus.
Fuck!!

No bonus.

2009-06-03T22:29:00.002+08:00

Initial saturday's plan will be cancelled cuz we cant get a car. Which means i have to travel via train all the way from lavender to jurong this saturday for my cuzin's wedding.
And i'll be wearing some grand baju kebaya!! Malu nye nyah!!!

Kind of disappointed. But wat to do? At the same time, save a bit of money then.
No outings after the wedding this sat. It will be a stay home sat nite.. and sunday as well cuz hubby is on duty. Boring nye!!

Love will be back tomorrow evening, house is in a mess. DEAD!!
Back to work tomorrow. A whole day to go through all the way till Saturday. Shucks!!

Its 10.33pm now, time checked. Hubby no where to be heard. Bz gaknye.
Till then.. will update soon. Definitely not tomorrow. He is home.

Nitez world.

2009-06-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

I was bored the whole of last nite and today. I edited some piczies.
This 2 are us from 2005 till now.

Well, any changes...? I guess i still look the same.
Unlike hubby.. from a lil boy looks to a young fatherly looks. Kan???

Couple photos of us in the midst of editing.
Will be uploaded soon.

This is what happen when im bored.

2009-06-03T16:35:00.005+08:00

Pabila mlm
menjelma...
Rambulan
menyinari cahaya...
Pemudi serta
pemuda menari bosanova....
Bosanova
irama sungguh merdu....
Mendengar
nya hilang lah rasa pilu....
Oh mari la
jgn ragu n malu....
Menari la
bersamaku....
Le nk g dancing2 lg... hmmm...

Asked hubby,.... he say.. tgk dulu.

Bored.

2009-06-03T11:44:00.001+08:00

All alone wif lil dini at home.
Im off today.
I had a good nite rest, and woke up at 11am. Indeed, the off is worthwhile. I got back the hours of rest and sleep. Dini had her breakfast but im still stuck on what to eat. There is a disadvantage also for not being a cooking wife. My kitchen is just full of snacks but barely any food to eat to make me full. If only hubby is ard, then its ok, he will go down and buy wateva i want. haha.

Talking abt hubby, he will bee back home tmrw. Hope he can send me to work on fri. Save duit ezlink aku!! 9 days more to pay day. Da kering sial!!!

Till then will update again. Got super lots of things to do!!

2009-06-02T20:09:00.001+08:00

Its a hot and humid day. Goodness!!!
Back home from work, dini's home but she's asleep.

I dunno wat to do, tym to eat but aint hungry.
Off day tomorrow.
A day to rest for me!!

2009-06-01T19:57:00.003+08:00

Just some random pics posting for today. Some might be funny esp hubby syg aku tu. Haha. Ngan tk pakai baju, pelahap, tk senonoh!!!

Kids had their stomach full thru the weekend. Im happy as well, cuz hubby had a long weekend till just now, .. he's back to camp now. Which means BOREDOM!!

How best if he is working as normal, come back home everyday, and he can fetch me from work everyday. Its lonely back again.
Yesterday, i purposely put both kids to sleepover at mama's place just to spend the nite wif him, and we ended up asleep near to 1.30am. We spent the quality nite together. How nice if it can happen again tonite.

He might be back on thursday. Not sure.
I need a car on saturday badly. My cuzin's wedding, and i need to go to jurong all the way from lavender. I hate to take public transport wif baju kebaya. Like wat seh.

Anyway.. i dunno y i was so the happy tooday. I cant stop laughing and joking ard at work. Time past so fast just now. Not sure abt tomorrow. Might be.. boring.. dunno... hmmm... Waiting for the lil dini to be back home.

And later.. the finale of top chef 3... y i like tt show so much, cuz i like the way they can spontaneously create ideas of a perfect dish!!!

Till then.
Gonna miss hugging hubby syg ... lonely nite again.

2009-05-30T20:03:00.002+08:00

Saturday is family day!! WOke up at 11am. Lazy pigs all the 4 of us..

Had nasi rawan for breakfast cum lunch, so does hubby.. kids had bonjour choc bread for breakfast and chicken rice for lunch.
Some begawan solo kuehs for snacks.
Lots and lots of crackers, chocolates bought from cold storage just now.
And dinner... canadian pizza!! I ate like a pig. I ate so much! We had beef bacon cheeseburger favour pizza and hawaiian classic pizza. Nice!!

Hubby is having fun watching his new movie dvd that he bought. I forgot wats the title. Cant be bothered la sal dia bahagia. So noisy sia!! Kids are in their own world, while me, busily blogging. I lost weight last week, and now,, im gaining it back.

The nauseousness and the vomiting is gone, soon as i finished the antibiotics. Lucky, so my dear gals, im NOT pregnant!! Luckily.. im scared at first actulli. He!!

I began to be eatholic, i must eat rice, i eat a lot.. snacks a must as well. Wats going on now??? Errrr... I got my cookies and cream ice cream!! And my cuttlefish. Cravings gone... best best best...

Hubby will only be back to camp on monday nite. Best kan.. extra nite wif him!!! He's too cute to be true. Really turns me ON...
gatal sak aku.. hahaha.

Till then.
Wat a weekend!!

2009-05-28T20:11:00.002+08:00

The new me as of today.

Any changes in the way i look?
thinner? darker? or...

Ar i dunno. cant update much. The nauseousness in me is getting far worse.
I need a break.

Ciao!!

WAIT!! CAN ANYONE GET ME.... FRESH MANGOES? I WANNA EAT THEMMM... YUMMY!!!

2009-05-27T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, i got my pizza oreadi!! thanks to cik man's birthday treat. lol.

The cravings is done.. but the nauseousness is not!!!

errr.. seems very2 irritating.. due to the weather or my medication. Im tired so easily and i got difficulty waking up in the morning, eg just now!! Express getting ready for work. I woke up at 6.20am!! And mama coming at 6.50am. I got only half an hr to get ready which i managed.

Missing hubby loads as usual. It has become like an illness, i cant stop thinking abt him.. every second. even when i was working, and serving public. wth seh.
Work's been more and more hectic. Which i MUST endure cuz, i had promise myself this is the last job im gonna have till the day i retire to be a housewifey.

2 days to hubby's arrival back home. Long weekend cuz im off this sat. Yeah. 2 days to struggle to work.. and there it goes...

Im full now.... Thanks to the dinner!! Superb!!
Wasted no pics of the food la.. too bz eating.

And haiz 1st H1N1 case in singapore. Like shit ar. Make me scared. Esp my job involves face to face wif public. I'm kind of a bit kiasu abt this cuz its scary. Its an illness sia. I dun wanna suffer.

That's it for now.
Baby, kiss me thru the fone.
I will kiss you on friday... lol.

2009-05-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

Boring ar.. i nver get what i want.
I'm craving for pizza hut's SUPER SUPREME. But i wanna eat wif baby.

Bored!!!
Bila nak friday ni..???

2009-05-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

I got back my sense of taste. I'm beginning to eat as per normal.

Happy for that.

Tiring day at work. But time past very fast, so im glad. Im now home alone, cuz baby assigned me some tasks to do at home... which is to vacuum the home. The whole of last week i was very sick, and the home is such a mess. Baby doesnt like it. He is a neat person. So there u go dear. But i've just done part of it only. the rest is on u..

lalalalala..

The feeling of 'not getting enuf of him' is still still still the same. I miss him so badly sia. At work, at train.. when i eat when i do anything my mind will think of him. His face will always appear. His cute botak face. It seems like i fall in love again for the 2nd time. And the weekend was the first date. Physically, emotionally i really really want more of him now now now.

U might be reading this.. i dunno baby.. But ... I WANT U!!

K i tink i really need to stop. Im over!!

2009-05-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

I frankly say that i made the biggest sin, that i will go to hell if im dead.
I misjudged him, i mistrusted him.. but actual fact, he is such a loyal husband. I regretted being such a fucking wife. Y do i have such an attitude all this while?

Lucky its not too late to apologise. He apologised me wif open heart. Thank you sweetheart.
I cant get enuf of you this weekend. I just dun wanna let you go.

Im so scared of losing him.
Im so scared that he will repeat the same mistake again.
Im so scared that his love for me fade.

I have to be positive now.
He has proven me otherwise.

Muhammad Jailani, is my legal husband. He willingly takes me as his wife cuz he loves me for who i am. He accepted me, though i have a bad history. I MUST be thankful for that.
He is a responsible father, he is a responsible husband. My stomach is never empty for 4 whole years. He gave me a home, he gave me everything. And of cuz, as a return, i bore him 2 lovely princesses.

He has become more loving than normal, family oriented.. I should be thankful that he is willing to go out and get a job that is stable, sacrifices 6mths in camp training for a good job, the money is for me... And i should be thankful as well, that he is not like other guys who still wanna go out wif frens most of the time despitte having a family. To him, enjoy is a 2nd issue. When he has money, it will go to me first. Y am i so blind all this while? Y m i so stupid?

I must trust my own husband. I cant stop crying when he found out i used some words to curse him. I really owe him an apology, and as i mentioned he forgave me.

But i still feel so wrong. I just feel like telling him million2 times of sorry.

Baby.. i wanna tell the whole world that i feel...
IM THE LUCKIEST WOMAN ON EARTH TO WIN YOUR HEART, TO BE YOUR WIFE, YOUR SOULMATE AND THE MOTHER OF YOUR KIDS.
YOU ARE THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD

Im sorry for everything baby.
I love you.
I really, really do.

Baby i want you back quickly. Home everyday.
Im so stress being alone for this few mths.
I rather lose frens than lose you dear.
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.

Thanks for giving me all the luxury and happiness.
Im too blind to judge that.
I should have realise that happiness is in front of my eyes.
You are GOD's greatest gift for me sayang.

2009-05-23T21:17:00.004+08:00

I was diagnosed wif chest infection.
Dear god.. i hope this illness will cure soon.

As early as 8am, baby woke me up and sent me to clinic, and yes, im on MC again!! the pain is really terrible. I cant eat, i cant drink.. and worse, fever went up again to 39 deg. Doctor said if fever nvr go down till tomorrow, i have to go to hospital, and i might be warded. So far.. my fever gone.

After going to clinic, i went to my in law's stall had breakfast there, then i followed baby to the car mart that he longed to go.. konon2 nk beli 2nd hand car.. After hearing all sorts of thing, we decide to save up and buy 1st hand car.

Brought kids to changi airport. Kids were shocked to see their dad drive... hehe. Had a fun day today though im sick.

Im hungry but i cant eat till now. Everything i consume seems cant be digested.

Till then, will update again.

Baby went out to send back the car. Pity him, nvr sleep since yesterday.. tu la nk g pancing sgt kan.. amek kauuuu...

lol

2009-05-21T19:37:00.005+08:00

4 yrs has passed. We are still going strong.

He made me cry for a while last nite, i tot he forgot abt our anniversary, cuz he spoke to me on the fone, with a fucked up voice, and hang up call at 10.30pm just like that.

Before midnite, ard 11.55pm (mayb my watch is slow...) i received a msg for him..
The message is too personal for me to put in here.
Malu caye if org tau.. hehe

Of cuz then fr insomnia.. to a good nite sleep, and a big smile i have at work just now. Im proud to be married for 4 long years.. and im sure.. 14yrs will come.. 40years.. and till eternity.

I love you baby. I cant stop saying i love you.
Too bad tmr he's gonna spend the nite wif his frens... will be waiting for saturday afternoon, after work to be wif him.

Nothing beats my love for you, Muhammad Jailani.

lotza of luv,
ur wifey

2009-05-20T19:32:00.003+08:00

When the clock strikes 12 midnite later...

its 21 May 2009

which marks

our 4th year wedding anniversary!!!

Oh well, im blessed and i cant believe that i have managed to go through four long years of happiness, difficulties, pains and problems together with him, and yet we still going strong till date.

Baby, i want you to know that i love you so much. Nothing beats my love for you. Thanks for accepting me for who i am, though i understand that there is still more gals out there better than me.

I appreciate everthing that you have given me... and i appreciate every moment that we spend together. Though it has been 4 yrs, whateva happened 4yrs ago, is still fresh on my mind.

Baby, i promise that i will love you forever, and i will be a loyal wife and a mother of your kids. I promise that i will try my best not to disappoint you at all. I hope that our marriage will last till eternity.

I love you so much baby. I cant stop saying that i love you. I dun regret choosing you baby. You are the one for me.

Thanks baby.

Through this 4yrs .. i know the meaning of true love and sacrifices...

2009-05-20T10:14:00.003+08:00

Hubby is back home for a while. He has dental appt, but he must be back to camp at 1pm. Appreciate at least he is back for a while. I hope he gets another 2 days mc.. hehe.. then at least tmrw, he is still ard!!

My fever is recovering, so does the coughings. Kids are all fine now. Alhamdulilah. Hope this weekend will be just fine. But shit, im working this sat till 1.15pm officially. Hope no delays.

There is plans on saturday, that hubby wanna bring me to somewhere. A decision to make as well. Anyway i miss my kids. I miss the happy moments, their healthy smiles.

One day to our anniversary.

21 May 2009.

2009-05-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

I lost my precious voice.

I cant speak properly. I sound like a bapok. And the pain in my throat is killing!!
Fever's not goin down. I only have pathetic maggie at home. Boring!! I dun dare to go out to buy food. Cuz i still feel nauseous. Home delivery? Expensive sia. And wonder if i can finish up the food.

Haiz. When im sick i have to look after myself and be independant. When other people is sick, i will always be a helping hand. Nasib nasib...

2009-05-18T20:28:00.002+08:00

I'm down wif very high fever now. Went to clinic a while ago, and i was diagnosed wif fever, 39.2 deg and bad cough. Doctor disallow me to go to work for 2 days.. Mc given is 2 days but im off on wednesday. Thank god.

Im shivering cold.. waiting for lil dini to be home. Mum wants her to sleep over at her place.. but i said its ok. She can fetch dini tomorrow morning, and i can sleep. Anyway i still have to wake up early to report sick.

Its not that im scared. But i feel so lonely, unless if he is ard. Then different.

Anyway he is a bit fishy after heard some things from someone.

I smell something FISHY nearby but yet too far.

Hope that i can recover soon.

3 days to 4th year.

2009-05-17T13:36:00.002+08:00

What a waste. Lil kids are sick and plus myself down wif very2 bad cough. Another weekend down the drain. So bored staying quiet at home. But too bad, i dun have the energy to go out. The pain in my chest is killing me!!

Wats the difference between a smoker and non smoker...? I find it the same. The pain i suffer is the same. I get coughs as an when even i dun smoke. I just dun understand.

Today hubby is going back to camp as usual. Wednesday is my off day, and hubby's appt day at the dentist. He might be going hm for a while to see us. Best kan?

Tp i m disappointed over something. Thursday is 21st May, and its our 4th yr anniversary. He is in camp, cant celebrate. But then the nxt day, 22nd May, friday he will be coming home, BUT, he wll be out wif his frens the whole nite for fishing. Truely disappointed. Tot i can spend the nite wif him even if its at home. Cuz saturday im working, no way that i can follow him out. After work on saturday i planned to go out wif him, but i wonder if my parents would like to take care of the gerls. I really dunno.

You might think it is just an anniversary. But to me, wedding anniversary is very important cuz it marks the day that we are officially together, and celebrating it, shows that even the relationship is getiing longer and longer, we still appreciate each other, loving each other and going strong. That is my pt of view. I dunno abt urself dear. I cant say no to his outing, i dun want to be someone who restricts him from going out. I trust that he is just going fishing wif his frens. Strictly no alcohol i hope, cuz he cant control his stupid attitude when he drinks.

I wanna cry. I plan so many things. but in the end it wont happen. However.. i will still be counting down...

4 days to our 4yrs...

I love you baby, and i hope u love me too as much as u used to love me 4 yrs ago.

Amin.

2009-05-16T17:15:00.002+08:00

Hubby was stung by a bee while otw to fetch me on thursday evening.. from 1 sickness to another sia. His right eyes is swollen now. He was stung rite beside his right eyes. It now infected his neck, lots of 'pimple' thingy come out on his neck.
Kesian baby aku.
Kelakar ar tapi. Muka dia cute sak. If only i can take a snapshot of him.

Went to causeway pt just now for a while. bought myself a guess wallet. For kids, some toys. Hubby doesnt want anything. Let it be then.

Stay home now cuz i hate my throat feeling now!! its killing me!! its like itchy all over. ...

Sickness cum sickness

2009-05-14T20:24:00.002+08:00

Bored!! my gerls are down wif fever.. first was Nadya, and now Nayli is affected. Lucky hubby was not in camp in the morning. he brought kids to the clinic while i go to work. He does not want me to skip work.

I checked.. this yr im entitled for 10days paid leave, 10 days paid mc, 15days child care MC, and 6 days child care paid leave!!
I doubt i can make use of all.. ntah la eh.

Anyway hubby is back to camp. Cam bodo kan!! Tomorrow he is back again. Like duh!!!
For the 1st time, member bwk motor g camp. haha.. dia da bingit ar tu..
He volunteered to fetch me from work just now. How nice of him seh... Happy tau. Hehe.

My dad is otw now to send Nayli home. And im washing clothes. I wonder how the hell im able to hang the clothes to dry when lil nayli is ard. Will try la.

Hubby is getting more and more loving yesterday nite. haha.
'You... asal da tdo ni? i ade kat uma pn tknk duk sblh i tgk tv, tknk pelok i...'
he said tat. cute kan.. haha. Rindu aku la tu...

Best siak dpt tdo sblh dia last nite, even though Nayli was sick.. i dun have enuf sleep, but dpt pelok badan dia.. i have a big smile...

K la gtg...