hi everyone,

Waty is back again. Im now at mama's place. Hubby back late la. He got some case to attend *yawn*. Nayli is sick. Out of sudden, she has stomach aches... Wanna bring her to clinic, but mama say nvm.. ala if not can get child mc sia tomorrow. And friday mayb??? Kan bagos mcm tu. Jg anak, spend tym wif the kiddos.

From my last post, i became more phobia. Istri mane kan tak feel the same way as me...? Lau ade pompan kacau rumahtangga. Dunno la. I dun wanna be insane, I m kinda depressed. but im always hoping hubby will change and treat me better. \Especially no lies. Thats the most important. Insya allah la eh. Ive been feeling worried all the times, which i dun want to ... i wanna trust him but i know guys cant be trusted 100%.

I tried to tell him how i feel via sms. Hope he gives a positive thinking abt it. And never ever repeat the same mistake again. Ive been much tired so far. No outings, just home and work. Been teaching sabrina maths lately. And a prob arose, some one told me, in fact its like sooooo shocking and disappointing, About that, sorry guys, its too sensitive to elaborate.

I cant wait for pay day... 12th feb!! then holiday from 14th feb to 16th feb. Too bad this valentines cant celebrate much wif hubby :( Kids will be around. Mcm ne eh. Aku takot he disappointed. Wat should i get for him this valentines...??? I thought of a necklace.  Cus his one lost . THe stupid old necklace.

I've been having big appetite this days. Eat and eat and eat... But $$$ no enuf.... Cant wait for performance bonus this end of march!!! A car ... hubby is buying. Insya allah... :) tp hope no one else enter the car xcept  me his kids, my family, his family & his guy frens only. Yg lain leh blah.  Betol pe................

hmmm... wat else? dya is ok., normal. Sabrina, been getting better. Tired tired tired. Been looking forward to the holiday that is upcoming... A vacation to go, and my wedding anniversary...

Till then.

WIll update.

its been so long... aku da mls nk blog actulli. But nvm la... i tot of changing my blog name to jaja-gaga-oohlala.blogspot.com ... but hmmm ntah eh.. think adorablefairytopia still the best la... :)

im on 2 days mc due to asthma attack.. after 6mth. Its kinda bad, but ok la i can have rest till tomorrow. Something cropped up yesterday that makes me soooo fucking sad. Very2 sad. I really dunno la... I dunno what im feeling now, and i dunno wat to say anymore... Ku berserah padah Tuhan.

Well, how to be a perfect wife eh?? I wonder. I thought i am. Cuz i know im loyal, i fulfil his wishes... and i serve him like a king.

And another thing i wanna know... hmmm... husbands.. is it common for them not to show off their love towards their wifes or are they bored and malu of their wives...?? but i envy those couples who express their love in public... and indeed they are truly happy couple... I long the words of love from my husband, words of praise... romance... i really2 miss all that... Hmm.. i fucking dunno la...

Niway now im at mama's place cuz im bored. In the stage of recovery now... Tomorrow im meeting my dear cuzin, zura at northpoint. Just to meet for a while, to catch things up... :) And thursday back to work. Kinda miss work, surprisingly.. cuz i feel so lonely not working... Im not ready to be a housewife yet...

Weekends till cny, has no plans.. $$$ running down... Hope he plans for a day off just for me.. to spend quality time together...

Jai... pls I LOVE YOU... I REALLY LOVE YOU. PLS DO NOT DISAPPOINT ME BABY.

and to those sape2 pompan di luar sane, plz la... dun come into his life. and porak perandakan rumahtangga kita.. We are both happily married, wif 2 adorable kids.

Thank you, appreciate it.

testing blog pakai mobile... Haha.

I still havent fix my pc la... Or maybe buying a netbook. Life so far been a smile to me. Hubby and me.. Alhamdulilah. Celebrated his birthday on countdown as normal. Everything went smooth.... Ok la will update again. Aku nga sakit ar. Nk tdo

This is way out of the line. Everyday is oT. Goodness!!! I hardly have any rest. Stress sak.

21st november will be the day. I hope that day can create a bond back wif my baby boy. I love him so much. THe other day he cooked for me sweet & sour grouper & sotong. SHiok seh...!! Thanks love. I came back home from a long day shift.. and food is all ready !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love him loads

Today i had a very tiring time at work. Hubby involved in APEC duty. SO very bz.... K la will update soon.. esp abt 21 Nov... an early celebration for my 25th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today hubby is on morning shift, so decided to bring the gerls out. Planned wif radiyah and we decided to just bring them to amk for chilling session & to the library. Went out at ard 1.15pm.. and baba fetched me at 6pm...

We had lunch at macdonalds, and then sat outside banquet for a chit chat session while the gerls have a play. Met hubby for a while at banquet while he was on duty... TAu dia pn nak check out on us... lol

Then headed to the library and the gerls.. mintak ampon la eh.. punye la nakal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz tomorrow is a working day.. sucks.. nxt whole week primary school students tk skola which means disaster at work!!!!!!!!!!! singaporeans... typical... haiya...

Im so full now, though i just ate a little... but ... i dunno what to eat for dinner seh!!!

hmmm...

Yesterday i was kinda of happy cuz hubby is in good mood. I got fed up when hubby needs to work on my off day which is initially is his 2nd off day. Hope tomorrow i can change my off day to tuesday so we can have same offs together though 1st half of the day is to see him sleeping. :(

K la gtg for now... Oh ya.. never see the anjing anymore... good2....

But im still feeling guilty for Sabrina... yah... i know im unfair... :( 9 years have passed..............

Hey guys.. Im sorry for not updating too often. Well i still havent got my PC fixed seh!!!. Haiya. Hari raya was spent well, lots of homiez visited and kids are happy as well.

Work is too STRESSFUL in terms of workload is rising and rising, ends up im on MC for 2 days inclusive of today and tomorrow.

Yesterday went jalan raya wif my dearest sis diyah, her kid shadiyah, me and the 2 rascals & jamz wif her princess. Went 2 homes its was fun. yes very2 fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today im at mama's place for a while, then will head home and meet my dearest policeman. LOLz

Well, there's ups and downs in my life so far.. Some good memories to be remembered and some bad memories to be shed. I had a dream last nite .. a weird dream.. but i dun wish to elaborate it here.

Ok another issue is regards to my WOMB. I had been having strong pulling pain on my cervix or womb i dunno?? AND end up im always in pain and unmovable. Im scared. Just now went clinic, but i didnt voice out abt it.. Haiz wasted seh. Im scared la... Or mayb my womb is not in tact at the correct position???

Still waiting for menses to come.... :)

Today wanna shop a while. Pay in.. no more worries of delays and cheats. Im happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

Till then will update soon ya!!!!!!!!!

Hari raya is like gonna be over soon. Its already near to 2 weeks but i still got more homes to go. This sat, despite working and hubby will be on nite shift, my parents want me and kids to follow them go jln raya.. open houses to go. Penat seh....

At first i do not want to celebrate hari raya that much cuz of financial constraint, but alhamdulilah, first 3 days of hari raya, we have new clothes, though 2nd day was the 2007 one, but we wore all as a family same2 together. And last sat we wore our 2008 raya clothes, still grand and brand new, and im so happy for that.

Not forgetting, today im on childcare leave, and tomorrow as well cuz its my lil princess' nadya's 4th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! Da besar anak aku seh, and of cuz Mr Jai, she's ur 1st child.. arent u proud??? hmm.... Today gonna have a mini celebration for her birthday.

Im still using my sis lappie la.. so not much photo is in her file.. and i become more and more lazy to upload.. Anything more c my facebook k!!!!

3 more months, and its 2010. A brand new year, where new achievements need to be attained. Savings, car and new home. Thats the main concern. :)

I love you hubby, i hope u love me too. I do have strange and uneasy feeling about you but i try to ignore those feelings, mayb im too attached to you.. i dunno. My dear radiyah will keep scolding me for thinking bad abt hubby... :) K2 i gotta change and think positive.

My lil dini is getting much2 cuter.. and cleverer. And of cuz naughtier... And terserlah kepenatan ku....

Ok la.. updates soon, insya allah k.. if i got the time. :)

Catch me up at FB>.... jaja_n_jai@hotmail.com

love... MRS JAI

Its so damn tiring nowadays. Workload is piling up and at home wif the housework i need to catch up on.

Today hubby is on morning shift.. and im on half day saturday. Im not at mama's place waiting for time to go to amk and buka at aunt's place while waiting for baby to knock off from work. Errands ive settled halfway and today i need to buy for the gals kasot raya.

Im really2 tired seh. I want another baby but if it really happens, i tink im gonna b as thin as a....? mayb juz safe sex every few days....lolz...

raya is coming and baby got leave approved on 2nd day raya. which means monday i must go shop fo rhis clothes. Planned to go arnold's city plaza this monday. We had rented honda fit for monday. :)

tomorrow is his nite shift. hell man!!! i gtta take care of the \kids alone in the day while he snores....

kocek pn koyak ni bulan kan... kueh.. langsir all havent buy seh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

ok la updates real soon. ade byk pic. tgk je la FB aku k!!! aku mls la nk upload.

to those who havent add me.... jaja_n_jai@Hotmail.com .............. find me @ fb...

I guess this blog page is getting much more boring. Reason due, its hard for me to update as im using my sis's lappie, and i can use it only for a short while. After iftar, ard 8.30pm latest, i have to rush home to get ready for another day.

I tink i feel triple tired, restless. All i can do when i reach home is to sleep. Even when babylove is around, i still sleep. Cant have much time to spend together. Both of us are bz with work and esp now hubby is on morning and nite shift & sometimes his dbl off days fall on my working day, it happens MOST of the time seh. SO irritating.

Cant believe it tat i havent finish preparing for raya. 1 more week to pay day and then i can start buying all stuffs. Mendak jgk seh tkde advanced pay. :(

Im everyday at mama's place, eat wateva they cook. Sometimes i get sick and tired of it. I work sooooo hard, but the money i get in return, its always not enuf. The short of money problem is always the big issue for me to think and results in migraine.

Raya ni tk jadi sewa kereta, just wanna pinjam kak jamz car, as she agreed for a day. Nk kuar byk2 pn .. byk pakai duit and energy. G mane2 yg penting je la...

Tgk la kejap lagi da nk alek. Babylove on morning shift today. SO tak tau kul bp dia balik today. Bosan ar... Wat to do... Wifey of a police officer is NEVER easy. A lot of sacrifices needed.

One news tat makes me sad, hubby doesnt want another child. He say stop at 2. So no chance for me to get a son... angan2 je la waty................

Tomorrow, i'll be iftar-ing alone. Hubby nite shift ar. Mendak sak. Mendak skali.

****Baby, wateva it is, i will stay patient, and i will stay strong to move on. Just for you syg and our lil ones.. The reason... i love you b. I miss spending time wif you syg... Hope we can find some day that we can have sweet sweet loving*******

This ramadhan is a blessing mth though tiring.. Nothng much happened. Just preparing for raya which im not looking forward to.. reason being hubby is working on that day.

The theme is black and purple.but i havent decide for me and him.

Sorry guys i did not update that much cuz i got not time and no mood.

Anyway to all.. happy ramadhan.